What’s your greatest fears/worries when organizing?
What prevents you from acting?
I know I often suffer some deep sense of fear when trying to engage in progressive efforts. Sometimes I think its a personal thing, of being shy in front of new people, of not wishing to be judged and rejected by people, of feeling exposed. Of feeling like a fraud or being deemed one. Of not fitting in, or being the only one who watches way too much TV and hasn’t read enough Foucault or Satre or whoever.
Sometimes I think its external – Everyone is timepoor, money poor. Working 9-5 takes it out of you. Studying all day and night takes it out of you. Staying healthy and cooking proper meals takes it out of you. Travelling around the city to get to meetings or rallies takes it out of you. Having fun and letting off steam takes it toll.
Sometimes I think its societal- My mum dabbled with Christianity when I was young and she was a single mother, sometimes I wonder if some of that got stuck in my social DNA, preventing me to truly let it go. I wonder if the years of conditioning to ‘behave’ at school creates some of the fear and limits ways I contribute. I tense whenever police are near.
These fears help push me sometimes, a challenge to overcome. Other times I feel ashamed.
I was curious if anyone else has similar feelings/thoughts sometimes?
Hi,I live in Melbourne, Australia, and I think I first came across Znet courtesy of the linear notes of a Propagandhi album along time ago. Soon after that Michael Albert gave a talk at my university- University of Queensland- where I first encountered in any detail his proposals on Parecon, which opened my eyes to exciting and new possibilities for progressive change. I particularly related to his call to offer people something other than just critiques- the 'What are we for?'Since then I have attempted to become more involved in social change, probably not as successfully or actively as I hoped (and still do), but I continue to try and discuss, engage and grow more confident/assured in political/social activism outside just those close to me. Not only do I agree with the many focuses examined in ZMag and Znet but I also have a passion for animal liberation/rights. Ive been a vegan for 6 years and a vegetarian before that and have appreciated the exeprience of having the personal and the political combine in daily life, having my lifestyle choices and habits be a daily political challenge to those around me. Its allowed me to engage and discuss other radical political views on other topics further just thru an initial question of 'what my lunch is today?'More personally I enjoy punk music, as controversial as some may find that label, its energy and ability to question help provide me with daily motivation. I also enjoy movies, and I like engaging science fiction novels- especially sci-fi's ability to hold a mirror to current society thru the use of future worlds, scenarios or alien customs.I've just started a PhD in Melbourne, where I hope to examine the continuing rise of nationalistic rhetoric in Australian society. Im looking for some part time work as there are a lot of bills and not much money. My old job was as a file clerk at the University of Queensland, shuffling paper as a means to pay the bills. So it was by no means the worse job available but it put into sharp relief the need for social change where work can be engaging and empowering for all.Im more than happy to chat about any ideas or topics, so please feel free to contact me as I look forward to meeting new people and hopefully working together to make the changes we seek in this world.
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