Uyakhumbula, kuze kube phakade naphakade, lowo mzuzu lapho uqala ukuthola unya nokungalungi kwezwe, futhi ungakulungiselele kahle, inhliziyo yakho ivuleka.
Ngisho ngempela zitholele wena; hhayi ngoba omunye umuntu ekutshela ukuthi ubone indlovu imile, enkulukazi futhi inganyakazi phakathi kwekamelo lakho, kodwa ngoba wena wambona, futhi manje uyazi ukuthi ukhona, futhi ngeke ahambe uze umhlasele, futhi ngokuphindiselela.
Izolo ebusuku, futhi ngibhala phansi ukuze I ngeke ngikhohlwe - ngoba ngiyazi kakade ukuthi ngeke - indodakazi yami endala, eyafinyelela iminyaka engu-12 kuphela ezinsukwini eziyishumi nanye ezedlule, yaba ngumMelika. Hhayi ngomqondo ongokomthetho. Wayesevele enguye, ezalwa lapha, futhi - njengengane emhlophe esizweni esimiselwe abantu abafana naye - enelungelo eligcwele lawo wonke amalungelo namalungelo akhona, ngaphandle kwemibuzo eminingi noma idrama. Kodwa manje usengumMelika ngomqondo ophelele nowesabekayo walelo gama, engiqonde ukuthi uye wethulwa ngempela ekusebenzeni kwesimiso ayingxenye yaso kokubili, futhi, ngesikhathi esifanayo, umane nje eyindlalifa. Uhlelo oluhlulekayo - olucishe lube ngazwi linye olucishe lungaqondakali - lokunikeza ubulungiswa kubantu abamnyama, umndeni kaTrayvon Martin ungowakamuva nje ohlukunyezwe amaqhinga obulungiswa baseMelika, kodwa ngokuqiniseka hhayi owokugcina.
Ukuze ubuke ebhidlika, amehlo avuvuke izinyembezi ezinosawoti omningi, zivutha kakhulu ukuthi ubaba wakhe angawesula? Kulungile manje ukuthi kuyinto kodwa yakamuva ye my izinhliziyo ezibuhlungu; kufanele ngimbambe, futhi ngimtshele ukuthi konke kuzolunga, nokumuzwa ephendula, “Cha ngeke kube!” Ngoba bheka, nakuba efunde izolo ebusuku ngokungabi nabulungisa futhi ngisho nangaphezu kwalokho ayekwazi ngaphambili mayelana nemigqa yamaphutha ezinhlanga ehlukanisa isizwe sakhe, usemncane kakhulu ukuba awuqonde ngokugcwele umqondo womjaho webanga elide, ngokuphambene nokugijima; ukuqonda ukuthi lona umjaho omude kakhulu, ngempela ukuthi ngisho namamayela angu-26.2 kuwukugaqa emzabalazweni webanga elide wokuthola ubulungisa. Nokuthi uma imkhathaza into ayibonayo njengoba ibonakala, manje kuzomele agqoke izicathulo zokugijima eziqine ngendlela emangalisayo, ngoba lokhusthandwa sami umsebenzi.
Yingakho ubaba enza lokhu akwenzayo. Manje usuyazi.
Futhi yebo, ngazi kahle ukuthi basekhona abangangiyala ngokuphakamisa ukuthi leli cala lalimayelana nobuhlanga. Akubona nje abavikeli bakaGeorge Zimmerman, engizobhekana nabo okwesikhashana, kodwa ngisho nombuso, abashushisi bawo basusa ubuhlanga kuleli cala kangangokuthi ngokungagunci lalikhathaza njenganoma yini abavikeli ababezama ukuyenza. Mhlawumbe ngaphezulu. Ngisho, ezokuzivikela Umsebenzi ukumela iklayenti labo, futhi ngeke ngibasole ngokwenza kanjalo ngempumelelo. Kodwa umsebenzi womshushisi uwukwenza kucace phambi kwejaji ukuthi ummangalelwa wenzeni futhi okungcono ukuthi kungani ekwenzile. Ngokuvumelana ne-colorblind ngokuyisisekelo, "lokhu akuphathelene nobuhlanga," ukulandisa, banikeze ingxenye engcono kakhulu yezikhali zabo ngaphambi kokuba impi iqale.
Ngoba noma ngubani osakholelwa ukuthi leli cala alihlangene nobuhlanga - noma okubi nakakhulu, ukuthi bekuyinhlekelele nje, incazelo yobuhlanga eyahlanganiswa yilabo abathanda ukubabiza ngokuthi "abagijimi bohlanga" - bahlushwa ukukhohlisa okujulile njengokungabaza amandla abo okucabanga okunengqondo. Noma kunjalo, ake sizame ukubonisana nabo umzuzwana, njengokungathi bayakwazi ukukuzwa. Masenze lokho ngenxa yemicabango ephusile uqobo, njengento esisakholelwa kuyo; futhi ezweni lethu, abanye bethu abasakholelwa kukho - ngokumelene nabo bonke ubufakazi - liyakwazi ukwenza ubulungiswa futhi lifeze izithembiso zalo. Kafushane, ake sinikeze lokhu isibhamu esisodwa ngaphezulu.
Labo abaphika i-engeli yobuhlanga ekubulaweni kuka-Trayvon Martin bangakwenza kuphela ngokungazi ngamabomu, ukuphika okuhlakulelwe ngokucophelela kwabo bonke ubufakazi obunengqondo, obusobala obuphambi kwabo, nangokusula ezingqondweni zabo - uma ngempela bake baba nalutho. lapho ukuze kucishwe - wonke umlando wobulungiswa bobugebengu baseMelika, izinsolo zobugebengu ezivame ukunamathela kubantu abamnyama, kanye nemiphumela engenakugwemeka noma nini lapho amadoda amnyama ekhokha lezi zinsolo ngokuphila kwawo. Kufanele khetha ukushiya amachashazi engaxhunyiwe phakathi, ngokwesibonelo, uMartin ngakolunye uhlangothi, bese kuthi ngakolunye, u-Amadou Diallo noma uSean Bell noma uPatrick Dorismond, nanoma yimaphi amanye amadoda amnyama amagama awo - ebengizowabhala - thatha ikhasi nekhasi, futhi amagama abo angeke asho ihlazo kubantu abaningi abamhlophe noma ngabe ngibala, futhi ukuthi inkinga.
Yebo, ngike ngakuzwa konke ngaphambili. UGeorge Zimmerman akazange amlandele uTrayvon Martin ngoba uMartin wayemnyama; wamlandela ngoba ezitshela ukuthi uyisigebengu. Yebo eziyigugu, ngiyakuzwa lokho. Kodwa yini wena ungawutholi - futhi ngokungawutholi ngenkathi usakwazi ukubamba umsebenzi ngandlela thile futhi feed ngokwakho, uvalo ngaphandle kwami - kubaluleke kakhulu. Okungukuthi, uma ukucatshangelwa kobugebengu uZimmerman anamathisele kuMartin kwakunamathele kakhulu ngoba lona wakamuva wayemnyama - futhi wayengeke anamathele kuye ngendlela efanayo ukube wayemhlophe - khona-ke icala lokucwasa ngokobuhlanga kanye nokwenza iphrofayili kufanelekile ngokuphelele.
Futhi ngokuqinisekile ngeke sikuphike ukuthi ukucatshangelwa kobugebengu kwakuncike ohlangeni lwale ngane efile singakwazi? Ngaphambi kokuba uphendule, sicela uqaphele ukuthi ngisho nommeli wezokuvikela akazange akuphike lokhu. Ngempela, abameli bakaZimmerman bavuma enkantolo ukuthi ukukhathazeka kwekhasimende labo ngoMartin kwakuxhunywe ngokuqondile eqinisweni lokuthi ukugqekezwa kwangaphambilini komakhelwane kwenziwa abesilisa abasebasha abamnyama.
Yingakho kubalulekile ukuthi uGeorge Zimmerman athethelele ukulandela kwakhe uMartin ngoba njengoba ekubeka, “lawa mapunk aphushayo” ahlala ebaleka. Ngamanye amazwi, u-Zimmerman wabona uMartin njengomunye “we-punk fucking” ongazange alunge, ofana nalabo ababeke bagqekeza emphakathini. Kodwa kungani? Ikuphi ukuziphatha uMartin akubonisayo okwakungaphakamisa ukuthi uthambekele ebugebengwini? Ithimba lika-Zimmerman alikwazanga ukukhiqiza lutho olubonisa okuthile okusolisayo ngezenzo zikaMartin ngalobo busuku. NgokukaZimmerman, uMartin wayehamba emvuleni, “eqalaza,” noma “eqalaza ezindlini.” Kodwa ukungabheki emafasiteleni, noma izibambo zezicabha ezinyakazayo noma izikrini zovulandi, nanoma yini okungenzeka iphakamise umgqekezi. Abukho ubufakazi obethulwe ngabaphikisi ukuze basekele izinsolo zekhasimende labo. Esikwaziyo nje ukuthi uZimmerman wabona uMartin futhi waphetha ngokuthi wayefana nalezo ezinye izigebengu. Futhi ngezinga lokuthi kwakungekho lutho ezenzweni zikaMartin - ekhuluma ocingweni futhi ehamba kancane ebuyela ekhaya esuka esitolo - lokho kwakuzobonisa ukuthi ungomunye walawo "mapunk ahlukumezayo," okuwukuphela kwencazelo okungenzeka ukuthi kungani uGeorge Zimmerman wayezombona. ngaleyo ndlela ngoba uMartin, njengensizwa emnyama kwakucatshangwa ukuthi kungenzeka ukuthi uyisigebengu, futhi ngaphandle kwesizathu, ekugcineni, kodwa umbala.
Okusho ukuthi, u-Trayvon Martin ufile ngoba umnyama futhi ngenxa yokuthi uGeorge Zimmerman akakwazi ukuhlukanisa - futhi akazange abone isidingo - phakathi kwabantu abamnyama abangenalo ubugebengu. Okusho ukuthi, uGeorge Zimmerman unobandlululo. Ngoba uma ungakwazi ukuhlukanisa phakathi kwezigebengu ezimnyama kanye nezingane nje, futhi ungasiboni isidingo sokuzama, ngokusobala, kukhona umuntu ocwasa ngokwebala. Angikhathali ukuthi umama wakho wasePeruvia uthini, noma umyeni wakhe omhlophe owashada nomama wasePeruvia, noma umfowenu, noma abangani bakho abamnyama, noma intombazane emnyama owayithatha wayozifundisa, noma izingane ezimnyama owazifundisa. Uma ubona ingane emnyama bese uthatha “isigebengu,” ngaphandle kobufakazi bokuziphatha obuphakamisa isiphetho esinjalo, ungumuntu ocwasa ngokwebala. Akukho okuhlukile. Lokho kuya kuGeorge Zimmerman nanoma ubani ofunda lokhu.
Futhi nansi into: ngisho nasekukhanyeni kobufakazi obuhle kakhulu kuGeorge Zimmerman lokhu kuzohlala kuyiqiniso. Ngoba ngisho noma sikholelwa, njengoba kwenza ijaji, ukuthi uZimmerman wazivikela, akunakungabaza ukuthi ukube kwakungengenxa yezinsolo ezingenasisekelo nezicwasa ngokwebala zikaGeorge Zimmerman ngalobo busuku, uTrayvon Martin wayeyobe ephila, futhi uZimmerman wayeyophila. umuntu ongaziwa ngokuphelele, odabukisayo ofuna ukuba ummeli, okungekho muntu ongamnaka kakhulu. Nguye owasungula idrama ngalobo busuku. Futhi ngisho noma ukholelwa ukuthi uTrayvon Martin wahlasela uZimmerman ngemva kokulandelwa nguye, lokho akushintshi.
Kodwa ngokusobala lelo qiniso elingokokuziphatha nelikhona alinandaba kangako naleli qembu noma kubaphenduli abamhlophe abashesha ukutusa isinqumo sabo. Kubo, iqiniso lokuthi uMartin kungenzeka ukuthi wayenesizathu sokwesaba uZimmerman ngalobo busuku, kungenzeka ukuthi wacabanga ukuthi umile wakhe umhlabathi, ukubhekana nomuntu “owayengelutho” akubalulekile. Basuke bethi abantu abamnyama abalwa nomuntu abacabanga ukuthi uyesaba futhi obalandelayo, okungenzeka ukuthi uhlose ukulimaza, yibona abanecala lokufa kwabo kunalabo abagcina bebabulele. Abakushilo, futhi bangalenzi iphutha ngakho, ukuthi noma yimuphi umlungu ofuna ukubulala umuntu omnyama angamlandela, abhekane nabo, mhlawumbe aze abachukuluze; futhi ngokushesha nje lapho lowo muntu omnyama eqala ukumjikijela, noma ewahuba, umgijimi omhlophe angadonsa isikhali sakhe, umlilo, futhi acabange ngokunengqondo ukuthi bazobaleka nalesi senzo. Ngingaqala idrama, futhi uma uphendula idrama engiyidalile, wena abanecala, hhayi mina.
Kodwa siyazi ukuthi uma siphapheme ukude, wona lo mqondo awusoze wasetshenziswa ukuvikela umuntu omnyama osolwa ngesenzo esifana nalesi. Ake sibuyele emuva ku-1984, futhi ngokuqagela sisebenzise lo mqondo ecaleni likaBernhard Goetz ngokuhlolwa komcabango omncane ukuze sicacise iphuzu.
UGoetz, njengoba uzokhumbula, kwakuyindoda emhlophe okwathi, yesaba izinsizwa ezinsundu ngenxa yokuthi yayike yagetshengwa ngaphambili, yanquma ukudubula intsha enjalo eminingana emgwaqweni ongaphansi komhlaba. Babengamesabanga. Babemcelile imali, kubonakala nje ukuthi bamgcona kancane. Kodwa abazange bamsongele. Noma kunjalo, wakhipha isikhali sakhe futhi wadubula amahlandla ambalwa kubo, ngisho (ngokomlando wakhe wokuqala, kamuva wahoxa), wadubula okwesibili kwenye yezinsizwa, ngemva kokuba ethi, “Awubukeki kabi kangaka, lapha. , yiba nomunye.”
U-Goetz, ngokubikezelwa, wabonwa njengeqhawe iningi labamhlophe besizwe, uma ukuvota kanye nobufakazi obungenangqondo kufanele bakholwe. Wayeyi-Dirty Harry-like vigilante, elwa nobugebengu, futhi nakakhulu, ubugebengu babantu abamnyama. Ekugcineni naye wayezovuma ukuzivikela ngempumelelo futhi abhekane nokugwetshwa kuphela ngecala elincane lezikhali.
Kodwa ake senze sengathi umzuzwana ngemva kokuba uGoetz edonse isikhali sakhe futhi waqala ukudubula ezinsizwa kulowo mzila ongaphansi komhlaba, enye yazo mhlawumbe yayizidonsele ngesakhe isibhamu. Manje njengoba kuvela ukuthi akekho kubafana owayenaye, kodwa ake sithi nje sengathi. Ake sithi omunye wabo wadonsa isikhali impela ngoba phela yena nabangani bakhe badutshulwe ngakho ngenxa yokusabela impilo yakhe wavele wakhetha ukuzivikela kulo mshayasibhamu odidekile. Futhi asenze sengathi le nsizwa yakwazi ukushaya uGoetz, mhlawumbe yamkhubaza njengoba kwenza uGoetz, eqinisweni, komunye wabo. wakhe izisulu. Ingabe ukhona okholelwa ngokuqinile ukuthi leyo nsizwa emnyama ibingakwazi ukufaka isicelo esiyimpumelelo sokuzivikela enkantolo ngendlela uGoetz agcina enza ngayo? Noma enkantolo yombono omhlophe womphakathi ngendlela uZimmerman anayo? Uma ungaphendula ngoyebo kulo mbuzo kungenzeka ukuthi uhileleke esenzweni sokuzikhohlisa esijule kakhulu kangangokuba udelele umcabango, noma uzinikele ngokujulile ekukhohliseni abanye ukuze ukwenze ube yingozi ngempela.
Kodwa asikhohliswa.
Akudingeki nokuthi sibuyele emuva eminyakeni engamashumi amathathu ukuya ecaleni lika-Goetz ukuze siveze iphuzu, empeleni. Singahlala lapha, naleli cala. Ukube yonke into ngalobo busuku eSanford ibifana, kodwa uMartin, esaba ukuthi lo muntu angamazi uyamlandela - lo wakamuva engazisho noma nini njenge-Neighbourhood Watch - wadonsa isikhali wadubula uGeorge Zimmerman ngenxa yokwesaba kwangempela ukuthi uyahamba. ukulinyazwa (futhi ngisho noma uZimmerman wayebhekane naye ngendlela ukuze enze lokho kwesaba kube ngaphezu kokuqagela), ingabe isimangalo sokuzivikela sasiyoba yiqiniso kulabo abaqiniseka ngakho kuleli cala? Ingabe leli qembu labahluleli laliyophetha ngokuthi uTrayvon wayenelungelo lokuzivikela ezinjongweni ezicatshangwayo zobudlova zikaGeorge Zimmerman?
O, futhi ngabe kuthathe isikhathi eside kangaka ukuba uMartin aboshwe kwasekuqaleni he bekungumdubuli? Ngabe wayezoyithola ibheyili? Ingabe wayeyonikezwa inzuzo yokungabaza indlela uZimmerman ayeyiyo cishe yibo bonke abamhlophe abalandela imithetho eMelika? Futhi khumbulani, labobantu abamhlophe babejaha ukumemezela ukudutshulwa kukaMartin kwalungisiswa ngisho nangaphambi kokuba kube khona iyiphi isimangalo esenziwe nguZimmerman sokuthi uTrayvon wayemhlasele. Ngaphambi kokuba noma ubani ezwe inguqulo kaZimmerman yendaba, ingxenye enkulu ye-white America, futhi cishe lonke uhlangothi lwaso kwesokudla lase linqume ukuthi uMartin wayengeke enze lutho ngoba wayegqoke i-hoodie (emvuleni, cabanga), futhi wayemude ( empeleni ngokusho komphenyi wayengu-5'11″ hhayi u-6'2″ noma u-6'4″ njengoba abanye besho), nokuthi ngenxa yalokho kugqekezwa kwangaphambilini, u-Zimmerman wayenalo lonke ilungelo lokubhekana naye.
Cha, uMartin-njengomdubuli ubengeke azuze kulezi zimemezelo zomphakathi zobumsulwa ngendlela uZimmerman enza ngayo.
Ngoba kusobala ukuthi abantu abamnyama abanalo ilungelo lokuvikela ngokwabo. Kungakho UMarisa Alexander, owesifazane owayehlukunyezwe umyeni wakhe (eqinisweni yena ngokwakhe), usanda kugwetshwa iminyaka engu-20 ejele ngemva kokudubula isibhamu odongeni lapho ezwa sengathi usezophinde amlimaze.
Futhi ngakho iyaqhubeka. Unyaka nonyaka kanye necala emva kwecala liyaqhubeka, nempilo yabantu abamnyama ibhekwa njengento esetshenziswayo enkonzweni yokwesaba abamhlophe, ikakhulukazi abesilisa abamnyama (kodwa abesifazane abaningi abamnyama kanye nenqwaba yabantu baseLatino nabo) emakwe njengezinkinga okufanele zixazululwe, kunokuba njengabantwana okufanele bakhuliswe. Futhi kulobubusuku, abazali babo bazobabamba futhi bazame ukubaqinisekisa ukuthi konke kuzolunga, njengoba nje kuzodingeka baphinde bakhathazeke kusasa ukuthi ingane yabo emnyama noma ensundu ingase imele ukubonakaliswa ngokomzimba kokukhathazeka okumhlophe, futhi ikhokhe inani eliphelele. ngalelo qiniso, kungaba ezandleni zomuntu ohluliwe ngokungahleliwe no-jones womthetho, noma iphoyisa langempela elenza intando yombuso. Ngamafuphi, bazobamba izingane zabo futhi baqambe amanga kubo, okungenani kancane - futhi ngokwabo - ngoba ngobani akusho bafuna ingane yabo ikholwe ukuthi konke kuzolunga?
Kodwa ngezikhathi ezipholile laba bazali bebala bazotshela izingane zabo iqiniso. Ukuthi empeleni yonke into hhayi kuzolunga, ngaphandle uma sikwenza kanjalo. Lobo bulungisa akusona isenzo sokugcwaliseka kwezifiso kodwa umphumela wokumelana. Ngoba abazali abamnyama bayazazi lezi zinto njengoba bewazi amagama abo, futhi njengendlela yokusinda benza isiqiniseko sokuthi nezingane zabo ziyazazi.
Futhi uma izingane zabo kufanele bazazi, ke imayini kumele ubazi nabo.
Futhi manje bayakwenza.
Uma izingane zabo zingavunyelwa ukungabi nacala ngaphandle kwalokhu kukhathazeka, nami kufanele nginikele nge-naiveté yabo e-altare leqiniso.
Futhi manje sebekwenzile.
Ngakho-ke kubagcini bobukhosi obumhlophe, kufanele nginikeze leli gama lokugcina. Ungacabanga ngakho njengezwi lesixwayiso. Indodakazi yami endala iyakwazi ukuthi ungubani futhi yakubona okwenzile. Wenze isitha esisha. Ngolunye usuku, ungase ufise sengathi awuzange wenze kanjalo.
U-Tim Wise ungumbhali wezincwadi eziningi, kuhlanganise nezakamuva kakhulu, ethi, DEAR WHITE AMERICA: LETTER TO A NEW MINORITY eshicilelwe yiCity Lights. I-Cornel West ibiza u-Wise ngokuthi “Umfowethu we-vanilla ngokwesiko (lokulwa nokucwasa nokulwa nobugqila) uJohn Brown.”
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