Sekuphele amasonto amathathu uDkt Christine Blasey Ford ethule ubufakazi bakhe phambi kwesizwe namanje ngisadonsa kanzima ukuqhubeka. Njengoba inkulumo iphendukela emathemu amaphakathi ezayo, ngizithola ngihlehla ngokomqondo ngokumelene nokungaphezi komjikelezo wezindaba njengoba ulima, ngibangela ukukhohlwa kwamasiko ngemva kwawo. Ngisakhungathekile esikhathini esidlule, nginyakaziswa umbukwane wokulalelwa kwecala lase-Kavanaugh, futhi ngidonse amashumi eminyaka emifuleni emnyama kakhulu yezinkumbulo zami.
Ngo-October 1991, ngangihlezi esitulweni sekilasi likaMnu. Kumfundi webanga lesikhombisa, imininingwane, kokubili ecacile ngokumangalisayo futhi ekhangayo, yayithakazelisa ngokukhethekile. Yini eneminyaka engu-13 ubudala eyayingase imelane nenqaba kanyekanye ubufakazi obubi mayelana nezinwele zase-pubic ezibekwe ethini le-Coke? Sakhungatheka. Ubani ongenza into enjalo? Phakathi nokuqulwa kwecala, othisha bethu bakhipha ama-TV ezinqoleni futhi bavumela ukuqhubeka kudlalwa phakathi namakilasi ethu. Kubonakale sengathi sabelana ngomzuzu obalulekile wezwe futhi ukubukela ndawonye kusho ukuthi sonke siyingxenye yomlando owenziwayo.
Ukubaluleka okuphelele kwalokho okuhlangenwe nakho kwakungeke kungithinte, nokho, kwaze kwaba isonto lapho ngihlanganisa iminyaka engu-40 futhi ngibuka uDkt. Ford exoxa indaba yakhe phambi kwelinye ikomiti lezobulungiswa. Ngalesi sikhathi, bengibheke ikhompuyutha esedeskini lami esikoleni samabanga aphezulu esingaphansi kwedolobha lase-Oregon lapho ngifundise khona izifundo zobuciko obubonakalayo nezamafilimu eminyakeni eyi-14 edlule. Ngithatha ubufakazi bakhe, ngazithola ngikhungatheka. Njengoba izwi lakhe laliqhaqhazela, ngezwa imizwa enamandla kakhulu kwakungathi ingikhubaza. Angikwazanga ukuyeka ukubheka nakuba ngangazi ukuthi kukhona okungihlukanisayo ngaphakathi nokuthi, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi isimo sami somzwelo, kwakuzodingeka ngizihlanganise ukuze ngibhekane nekilasi lami lokuqala losuku, kusasele imizuzwana nje. Njengoba ikhamera ingena ebusweni bukaDkt. Ford, uvalo lwakhe luthinta izinwele zakhe, nezinyembezi zicwebezela emakhoneni wamehlo akhe, angikwazanga ukuwunyakazisa umuzwa wokuthi ngibuke owesifazane. ezidela ngaphambi kwesizwe, njengoba nje u-Anita Hill ayenzile eminyakeni eminingi ngaphambili.
Njengoba elandisa ngokuhlangenwe nakho kwakhe noBrett Kavanaugh kanye noMark Judge, udonga lwangaphakathi lwesibindi engangilwakhile phakathi neminyaka lwaqala ukubhidlika. Lolo donga, olwake lwakha izitini ekuhlangenwe nakho okuningi - ama-catcalls, ukuphawula kukathisha wesikole samabanga aphezulu owancoma imilenze yami enemisipha phambi kwekilasi, iminyaka eyichitha nesoka elihlukumezayo, umphathi owayethanda ukungibonisa izithombe zobulili ezingcolile azithandayo. , amadoda aziveze kimi epaki, ebhasini, evenini - konke waqala ukuchitheka. Kube nezigigaba eziningi kakhulu ongazibhala eminyakeni eminingi kamuva, kodwa bezilokhu zikhona ngaso sonke isikhathi, zihlale zikhona kodwa zingashiwo nhlobo. Ngangingazi ukuthi ngizokwenza kanjani usuku lonke.
Lapho ngingena ekilasini lami lesikhathi sokuqala ngomlando wezithombe ezinyakazayo, kwaba sobala ukuthi abaningi babafundi bami babekade bebuka ubufakazi bukaDkt. Ford. Ngibabuke sebegoqe amafoni abo, ngaphindiselwa ebangeni lesikhombisa. Ngakhumbula ukuthi, ngesikhathi sokulalelwa kwe-Hill-Thomas, sasixoxa kanjani etafuleni lethu elincane kulelo klasi lesitolo sezinkuni, senza amahlaya, sididekile futhi sijatshuliswa umbukwane. Bekuyi-surreal ukuzwa abantu abadala bexoxa ngokuhlanganyela kokubili okusondelene nokubi endaweni ehlelekile kakhulu ongayicabanga.
Ngaleso sikhathi, ngangingakaze ngiqabule umfana, kodwa ngathola ukuthi ukuthakasela kwesizwe ngalokho okwakwenzeka phakathi kuka-Anita Hill noClarence Thomas kwakuhlobene nendlela amadoda amadala ayeqale ukungibheka ngayo ngalowo nyaka. . Ukumunca kwami โโezigcawini kugcine kuzibonakalise kuphrojekthi engiyidalile lokho kuwa. Ngaklama futhi ngenza ibhodi lokusika elinomfanekiso wenhlanzi eqoshwe nge-walnut emnyama ezungezwe ulwandle lukaphayini omhlophe. Ngaqamba lelo bhodi lokusika elithi Anita Hill.
UMesiya Womhlaba
Ukufundisa kuvame ukuba yisenzo sokulinganisa phakathi kokuziveza ngokwanele ukuze ubonakale njengomuntu ongenekayo futhi oqotho nokugcina ubumfihlo nebanga eliyingxenye nengxenye yobungcweti, kuyilapho ugcina imingcele yomuntu siqu icacile. Iningi lefilosofi yami yokufundisa isuka enkolelweni yokuthi ubudlelwano bomuntu ngamunye kanye nomphakathi buyisisekelo lapho konke ukufunda kufanele kwenzeke khona. Bafundi, ngiyaqiniseka, funda kangcono lapho bezizwa bekhululekile ekilasini lakho. Ukuletha okuqukethwe ngezinye izikhathi kubaluleke kakhulu kunokudala indawo lapho bazizwa bebonakala futhi bazi ukuthi amazwi abo azwakala. Ukuze ngithole lowo muzwa womphakathi, ngiqala ikilasi ngalinye ngombuthano njengendlela yokuxhumana. Sibeka phansi amafoni ethu, sibheka amehlo, futhi simane sabelane ngokwenzeka ezimpilweni zethu. Kwesinye isikhathi sixoxa ngemininingwane engabalulekile yezinsuku zethu: izinhlelo zethu zangempelasonto, yimaphi amakilasi asicindezelayo, ama-anecdotes ahlekisayo. Kwesinye isikhathi siyajula.
Njengoba sibuthene embuthanweni wethu ngalolo suku ekuseni, ngabuka ubuso babafundi bami obuthongo futhi lelo veli lobungcweti kanye nobumfihlo lawa ngokungalindelekile. Kungazelelwe, ngangikhulumela phezulu lokho engangikutshele abangani abambalwa abasondelene namalungu omndeni: Nami, futhi, ngake ngahlukunyezwa ngokocansi. Ngachitha ukuphila kwami โโkonke, ngachaza, nginesibindi futhi nginamandla, ngiqhubekela phambili ngenjongo nokuzimisela, nokuqinisekisa ukuthi okuhlangenwe nakho engangimelana nakho kuye kwakwakha kodwa okungaqondile. Abafundi bami bahlala bethule bemangele. Ngabatshela ukuthi ngezinye izikhathi ubuxhwanguxhwangu bezwe bungena bungena ekilasini nokuthi namuhla, naphezu kwemizamo yami emihle, angikwazanga ukukuvalela ngaphandle.
Engingabatshelanga yona kwakuyimininingwane yendaba yami. Ukuthi kwenzeka ePeru. Mina nomngane wami sasihlala endlini yezivakashi encane edolobheni lama-surf ogwini olusenyakatho. Saba lapho izinsuku ezimbalwa, isikhathi esanele sokuba nobungane nomnikazi, umkakhe, nengane yabo encane. Ngakho lapho ngiphonseka ekamelweni lethu ngenye intambama ukuze ngithole okuthileโikuphi, engingakukhumbuliโfuthi ngathola leyondoda ngokuphazima kweso ekamelweni lami, ngathathwa ngiqaphile. Ngokushesha wanginamathisela odongeni, isandla esisodwa esifubeni sami, esinye sibambe ucelemba ayewusebenzise emizuzwini embalwa edlule ukuze agebeze izihlahlana ezimila eduze kwendawo. Wangitshela ukuthi amehlo ami awumbala wolwandle. Waphusha isinqa sakhe kwesami. Ngaphandle kokucabanga, ngasebenzisa wonke amandla ami ukuze ngimxoshe. Okunye ukufiphala. Ngiyazi ukuthi ngandlela thize ngabaleka ekamelweni ngathola umngane wami, kodwa angikhumbuli ukuthi sahamba kanjani, ubani opakishe izinto zami, noma safika kanjani ebhasini elizosithatha lisuka kulelo dolobha. Yonke leyo mininingwane ayisekho. Ubuso bakhe, iphunga lakhe, nalowo celemba akukho.
Ingabe Kuyoba Nendaba?
Njengoba izigcawu ze-Kavanaugh ziqhubeka, abafundi abaningi batshala imali ekuzibukeni. Abanye bacele ukulalela ama-headphone ngesikhathi sisebenza, abanye bafuna ukukhuluma ngalokho abakuzwile. Njengoba ikilasi ngalinye liqala, ngabhekana neqiniso lokuthi bengikhala usuku lonke - akukho sizathu sokuzenzisa, intsha ibona yonke into - futhi yachaza ukuthi kungani. Njengoba ngikhuluma, ngabona abafundi abathile ekamelweni bebhidlika. Izidumbu zazidonselana, amakhanda ehlise. Abanye abafundi basule izinyembezi ngamahloni. Abambalwa babo bacele ukuphuma ekamelweni ukuze bayoshaywa umoya.
Omunye umfundi, egcwele injabulo futhi ejabule njengoba engena, wadangala lapho ontanga yakhe bemtshela ngokwakwenzeka eWashington. Engakwazi ukulalela izincazelo zecala, wazulazula ukuze umzimba wakhe ubheke kude nesiyingi wabeka ikhanda lakhe phansi etafuleni. Ngilinde kuthuleke ngihlale eduze kwakhe. Ngaphandle kwanoma yikuphi ukuzenzisa kanye ne-monotone engeyona imbhedo, yena waziswa ukuthi wayengomunye weqembu lamantombazane ayehlulwe umfana omkhulu ngonyaka odlule. Wayengafuni ukutshela abazali bakhe, esaba ukuthi ngeke baphinde bamdedele aphume yedwa endlini. Ngithe ngisahleli naye kwangena unogada wesikole sethu ekilasini ezomlanda ukuze axoxiswe ngumuntu osevele ephenya icala. Isikhathi sasilungile.
Ingxenye enzima kakhulu yalolo suku kwakungekhona ukwabelana ngendaba yami noma ukuvulela amaqembu entsha mayelana nemininingwane ejulile yesikhathi sami esidlule. Kwakulalele njengoba abafundi bami bephikisana ngokuthi ubufakazi bukaDkt. Ford babungaba nandaba noma cha. Ekuphawuleni kwabo ngizwe enanela ngomzabalazo wami wangaphakathi. Okuhlangenwe nakho kokubuka u-Anita Hill ehlukaniswa futhi ekugcineni exoshwa yilawo malungu esilisa phambi kwesizwe sonke kwaba nomthelela onamandla emuzweni wami okhulayo webanga lesikhombisa wokuthi ngiziphathe kanjani njengowesifazane: ukuthi nakuba manje nginegama. ngalokho nami engingase ngibhekane nakho - ukuhlukunyezwa ngokocansi - uma ngibiza leyo nto noma ngenza ingxabano enkulu, ngizobe ngikhokha inani.
Omunye wabafundi bami weza kimi ngemva kwekilasi futhi wangitshela ukuthi, nakuba udadewabo wokutholwa amshaya esemncane, akekho emndenini wakubo owayemkholelwa. Wangiqinisekisa ukuthi usekahle manje ngoba usethuthile futhi akasadingeki ambone. Ngesikhathi engitshela lokhu, angikwazanga ukuzibamba ngimcabange, iminyaka eyi-10 noma engu-20 phansi komugqa, ecabanga ngobuhlungu obushaqisayo endleleni umndeni wakhe owamxosha ngayo, indlela abantu abamangalelwa ngothando lwakhe nokumnakekela babengeke noma akazange amkholwe.
Abahlekayo Ubuso
Emhlanganweni owawuseMississippi ngo-Okthoba 2, uMongameli uTrump wenza iphuzu bhinqa Ubufakazi bukaDkt Ford, encokola ngokuthi wayephuze ubhiya owodwa kuphela noma cha futhi egqamisa ukungakwazi kwakhe ukukhumbula imininingwane ethile yobusuku athi uBrett Kavanaugh wayemhlasele. Okwangihlaba umxhwele kwakungelona unya olusobala lochungechunge lwakhe lwamagalelo aphansi, kodwa ukumamatheka okukhazimulayo nohleko lwabesilisa nabesifazane kuleso sixuku sabasekeli eSouthhaven, Mississippi.
Angikwazanga ukuzibamba kodwa ngazibuza ukuthi bangaki kubo, ngaphansi kwalolo hleko, ababezwe ingwijikhwebu yento abayijwayele emgodini wesisu sabo njengoba belalele ubufakazi beFord. Mangaki amadoda kuleso sixuku ayenikele a umcabango odlulayo kulobo busuku obugcwele ubhiya esikoleni esiphakeme ababengasabukhumbuli, okwakungase kube ubusuku obubodwa obubuhlungu kakhulu ekuphileni komunye umuntu? Bangaki kulaba besifazane abahlekayo abakhunjuzwa ngasese ngento ebuhlungu engcwatshwe ekujuleni kwezikhathi zabo zakudala? Bangaki kubo abangakwazi noma abangakwazi ukuhlanganisa okuhlangenwe nakho osekunesikhathi eside kucindezelwe, besaba ukulahlekelwa okungase kubangele ukubala okunjalo? Bangaki kubo abangashaqeka ngokwazi ngokushaywa izingane zabo?
Ngiyafisa ukusho ukuthi, ngenkathi izigcawu zidla isizwe, ngama phambi kwabafundi bami ngethula izinkulumo ezinamandla mayelana nokuqhubekela phambili ngethemba nesibindi, mayelana nokukhuluma iqiniso nokuhloniphana. Ngizamile, kodwa angikholwa ukuthi ngenze umsebenzi omuhle kakhulu ngakho.
Esikhundleni salokho, ngesinye isikhathi izwi elimayo, elikhalayo ngezinye izikhathi ngikhulume ngokuvuma, ngomusa, ngokuthi uzwelo nozwela lungaguqula kanjani. Ngabatshela ukuthi ngizolalela, ngisho nalapho kubonakala sengathi akekho omunye. Ngakukholwa engangikusho kodwa nokho kwakusenesisindo esikhulu somzwelo esifubeni sami, isisindo sefa lika-Anita Hill, lobufakazi bukaDkt. Ford, bokuhlangana okungafunwa ukuphila impilo yonke, ukudlwengulwa nokuzama ukudlwengula abathandekayo nabangane. , zezindaba abafundi bami ababengixoxela zona phakathi nokuqulwa kwamacala, kanye neminyaka eyandulele. Kwakuyisisindo esenza kube nzima ukukhuluma, ingasaphathwa eyokuhola abafundi bami. Ekugcineni ngaphelelwa amazwi ngaphinde ngathula.
Ekugcineni, nokho, ubufakazi bukaChristine Blasey Ford kuthathwa njengokuthembekile yilabo abasezinhlangothini zombili zenkundla yezombangazwe, ayizange iguqule inkambo yeJaji uKavanaugh. Uzohlala kulelo bhentshi elingcwele, insalela yalezo zigcawu zifiphala zibe yibala elingathandeki ku-CV yempilo ehlukile. Kithina esisadonsa kanzima ukuqhubekela phambili, inkumbulo yezigcawu, nakho konke okwakumele, kuzoshiswa, njengoba kungenzeka uDkt. Ford akubeke, i-hippocampus, lingafi.
Belle Chesler, a I-TomDispatch ejwayelekile, unguthisha wezobuciko obubonwayo e-Beaverton, e-Oregon.
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