“Akummangazanga noma ngubani owayemazi ukuzwa lokho he wayengumdubuli.”
- U-Emma Gonzalez, Senior, Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School

Emasontweni amathathu adlule, amazwi anogqozi kanye nezimfuno eziqinile zabafundi baseMarjory Stoneman Douglas High School ziye zaduma ezinkundleni zokuxhumana nasemahholo esikole samabanga aphezulu esingaphansi kwedolobha lapho ngifundisa khona ubuciko bokubukwa. Iqembu lamantombazane amadala, agqugquzelwa esenzweni ngenxa yokwesabeka kwesibhicongo saseParkland futhi aqunga isibindi ngokubuka ama-video abafundi bakhona ababhikishayo, ahlela ukuphuma eyedwa. Nakuba kwakuwusuku olubandayo nolukhithika ngendlela engafanele engxenyeni yakithi yase-Oregon, amakhulu abafundi amasha ephuma esikoleni, enza lokho ngokuqinisekile, kwabaningi babo, okwakuyisenzo sabo sokuqala sokungalaleli umphakathi. Ngazimisa eduze kwesixuku, ngilalele njengoba bememeza befuna izikole eziphephile futhi kuphele ukwesaba ekilasini. Ngimi kulowo mgwaqo oseceleni obandayo, nganqotshwa amagagasi emizwelo engqubuzanayo. Nakuba ngiziqhenya ngokujulile ngabo ngokuphakamisa amazwi abo kanye nokuphikelela ukuthi ngizwakale, ngaphoqeleka futhi ukuthi ngibhekane neqiniso eliqinile nelinonya: abafundi bami nami angizizwa ngiphephile esikoleni sethu.

Ngisakhumbula ekuseni amakhaza kaDisemba ngo-2012 lapho ngiqala ukuzwa ngesibhicongo saseSandy Hook Elementary School eNewtown, Connecticut. Uzakwethu weza etafuleni lami, izinyembezi zehla ebusweni bakhe. Ube eselandisa ngemininingwane enyantisayo yalezo zigameko zokudubula: ikilasi labafundi bebanga lokuqala nothisha babo ababulawa ngosuku obekufanele kube ngolunye nje usuku lwesikole olujwayelekile.

Ngaleso sikhathi, indodakazi yami yayisenkulisa. Kulezo izithombe zesikole eyaqala ukuvela kwabezindaba yabafundi bebanga lokuqala bakaSandy Hook abanamazinyo e-gap ngabona ubuso bakhe. Ngaqala ukucabanga ngekusasa lakhe ezweni elinjalo futhi lalibonakala lifiphele. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi kuqhubeke, angikwazanga ukubekezelela ukufunda izindaba zalokho okwenzeka kulezo zindonga zesikole ngakho ngazithola ngigwema izinkulumo ezinozwelo, ezibuhlungu zabazali nothisha abanesibindi balezo zingane ezihlatshwe ngokungenangqondo. Ishaye eduze kakhulu nasekhaya. Kwakungethusa kakhulu izinga engangilicabange ngaphambili futhi esikoleni esasingehlukile kangako kwesami. Ngokungazi, ngacabanga ukuthi izinto kuzodingeka zishintshe, ukuthi akekho owayengabheka labo bantu abancane futhi akhulumele isimo esikhona. Nganginephutha kangakanani. Futhi njengoba sonke sazi, ukudubula kwaqhubeka kwenzeka.

Manje-ke bekuyini ngokubulawa kwabantu baseParkland okwenyusa izinga? Kungani lokhu kungenzeki ngemva kweColumbine noma eNewtown? Lena eminye yemibuzo othisha ebesilokhu siyibuzana esikoleni muva nje. Mhlawumbe okushayela lesi sikhathi ukwesaba ukuthi kubonakala kungenakugwenywa, ukuthi-ke-uma-kodwa-nini kukho konke. Njengothisha, siyaphoqeleka ukuba sizibuze: Liyofika nini ithuba lethu? Siyoyivala nini iminyango, silwe, sibaleke noma sicashe? Kuyokwenziwa nini ukuphelelwa ithemba ngesimo somzimba osemusha ophethe isibhamu futhi isikole sethu siphenduke igalari yokudubula kwabadukile?

Kuleli qophelo, sekuphele iminyaka sizijwayeza ukuzilolonga. Sikhiya futhi sivimbe iminyango, bese sigoqana phansi emagumbini amnyama kakhulu ekilasi lethu, intsha engama-36 kanye nomuntu omdala oyedwa ozama ukuthula ngangokunokwenzeka. Awekho amafoni, akukho ukukhuluma, akukho mnyakazo. Silinde ukukhala kwesibambo somnyango, kukhale oyedwa wethu, bese kuphelile. Okucacile.

Sikhanyisa, selule izitho zethu eziminyene, bese sibuyela ezihlalweni zethu. Ngikhuluma ihlaya, ngizame ukunciphisa umoya kancane, futhi ngiqhubeke nekilasi. Omunye umthelela omubi walokhu kuzivivinya nezinqubo, nokho, uwukwenza kujwayeleke ukusongelwa kwesenzo esinyantisa kangaka, esingajwayelekile okunzima ukukuvuma. Sesiwuthuntuthelise wonke umphakathi wethu wesikole ekwesabeni kwangempela kwalokho esikudlalayo. - ukulwela izimpilo zethu. Silindele ukuthi izinhlelo zekilasi ziqale kabusha uma izibani sezikhanyisile, sithemba ukuthi abafundi bazobe sebebuzwile ubucayi be-drill kodwa ngeke balufake ngaphakathi uvalo. Ukuthi akekho kithi ozokwenza. Lapho abafundi bami bezwakalisa ukwesaba okuhlezi ngaphakathi kubo kulelo gumbi elimnyama, lapho benikeza isikhala sokuphelelwa ithemba sokuphefumula ekukhanyeni, sonke siyaphoqeleka ukuba sibhekane neqiniso elisontekile lalokho esikwenzayo.

Ekuqaleni kwesemester, nginikeze abafundi bami abasha uhla lwemibuzo mayelana nempilo yabo. Omunye wabo waphendula umbuzo othi, “Iyiphi into eyodwa ekugcizelelayo ngempela?” ngokubhala: “Okungigcizelela ngempela iqiniso lokuthi ngingase ngifele kulesi sakhiwo.”

Ngangingazi ukuthi ngingaphendula kanjani ngoba, ngokweqiniso, ngizizwa ngendlela efanayo. Ngikudlulisa kanjani lokho okuzwakalayo ukungena endaweni yakho yokusebenza njalo ekuseni ngizibuza ukuthi ingabe namuhla usuku ozofela ngalo khona? Ngikuchaza kanjani ukuthuthumela engikuzwayo lapho kufanele ngibhekane nalowo mfundi - lowo owenza ubuciko obuphazamisayo, ongamomotheki noma ahlanganyele nontanga yakhe, futhi abazali bakhe abangangiphenduli ama-imeyili noma izingcingo zami - ukuze ngimtshele ukuthi kumele ehlise udlame emsebenzini wakhe? Ngiluhlanganyela kanjani uvalo lwami olujulile lokuthi le yingane ezongibuyela kamuva, ihlomile futhi ilungele ukuziphindiselela?

Ngibuveza kanjani ubunkimbinkimbi bemizwa engiyizwayo lapho ngigoqe ebumnyameni nabafundi bami, ngicabanga ngalokho okungasithatha sonke ukuze siphume esakhiweni siphila ngohlobo lwangempela lwesimo esifanayo? Futhi ngiqala kanjani ukucabanga ngesimo esibi kakhulu, ukuthi ingane eneminyaka eyishumi nesithupha eqoshame eduze kwami ​​ebumnyameni ingumdubuli wesikole olandelayo? Esimweni esishubile sekilasi lami, abafundi bami sebengabasolwa.

Othisha njengabafel’ ukholo?

Ngicabanga ukuthi wonke uthisha omusha ufika nenguqulo ethile yendaba kathisha ophumelele othatha iqembu labafundi elihlazekile lisuka ehlakalweni liye emfundweni enhle elidlala ngemuva kwengqondo yakhe. Lelo phupho le-cinematic livame ukulahlwa njengoba iminyaka ihamba. Uma uzophila ohlelweni, uqine isikhathi eside, inkohliso ethile kufanele ichithwe. Cishe ingxenye yesithathu yabo bonke othisha abasha gxuma umkhumbi ngonyaka wesithathu lapho izinselelo zomsebenzi - amahora amade, ukuhlela njalo, ukugreda okungapheli, kanye nokukhathazeka mayelana nokuhlangabezana nezidingo zobuhlakani nezomzwelo zabafundi bethu - kuqala ukubonakala kungenakugcinwa.

Eminyakeni yami yokuqala emsebenzini, ubukhulu bomsebenzi ongokwengqondo wokunakekela impilo yabafundi bami kanye nokuqwashisa okunwabuzelayo engingeke ngikwazi ukukweseka ngokugcwele futhi ngazi ukuthi konke kunganginciphisa izinyembezi. Uhambo lwami lokuya ekhaya ntambama ngokuvamile luzwakala njengeseshini yokwelapha ngaphandle komelaphi. Ngangidlala futhi wonke amathuba aphuthelwe, yonke inselele yokuhlangana nabantu, bese ngiyakhala. Ngangazi ukuthi, naphezu kwalokho engangiholwa ukuba ngikukholelwe, iqiniso elimangalisayo lalesi simo laliwukuthi ngangingakwazi ukusekela bonke abafundi bami. Ingxenye yokufundisa iyohlale imayelana nokwehluleka: ukwehluleka ukuxhuma, ukwehluleka ukuqaphela, ukwehluleka ukubhekana nezidingo ezicashile neziqondile zabo bonke abafundi. Kwakuwumdlalo wezinombolo engangihlala ngihlulwa futhi lelo kwakuyiqiniso okwakudingeka ngilamukele ukuze ngibe uthisha ophumelelayo.

Noma kunjalo, uhlobo lwakudala lomfel' ukholo lukathisha osebenza kanzima kuze kube sebusuku kakhulu, edela impilo yakhe ukuze agxile kubafundi bakhe kuphela, yilolo esithenge kulo njengesiko. Indaba esiyixoxayo eyokuthi othisha banamandla angaphezu kwavamile, bayakwazi ukuguqula noma yimaphi amagagasi, balungise noma yikuphi ukulimala, futhi baxazulule izinkinga zomphakathi wethu ngokugxila, ukuphikelela, nokunakekela. Uma nje ngizinikela kakhulu, ngifaka amahora amade, futhi ngisebenzisa ikharikhulamu engcono, ekugcineni ngizowasindisa wonke. Ukuba yilo mfel’ ukholo kuyibheji lokuhlonipha esikoleni ngokwaso, uphawu lokuthi ubani owenza umsebenzi omuhle kakhulu. Angikwazi ukuzibamba kodwa ngiyazibuza: Ingabe ukufela ukholo akukona yini ukuthatha inhlamvu kubafundi bethu ukubonakaliswa kokugcina kwalolu hlobo lwe-archetype? Akukona yini lokhu, i-post-Parkland, manje efunwa kithi?

Le nganekwane ehlukile yaseMelika yothisha ohlinzeka ngensindiso kumfundi ngamunye yilena manje esesiyibhekise kothisha baseParkland abajikijela imizimba yabo phambi kwezinhlamvu ukuze basindise izimpilo zabafundi babo. Futhi ngenkathi ngimangele ubuqhawe babo, ngisazimisele ukungabaza izisusa zalabo, okubala umongameli wase-United States, ebaphakamise njengezithombe.

Mhlawumbe ukuqhakambisa othisha njengamaqhawe kumane kungenye indlela yokuqhubeka nokwenqaba ukuhlonipha nokuhlonipha umsebenzi ngezindlela ezibalulekile. Amaqhawe awadingi osayizi bekilasi abancane, izinzuzo noma ama-akhawunti anele omhlalaphansi. Iqiniso liwukuthi labo thisha kwakungafanele neze babeke ukuphila kwabo engozini ngenxa yabafundi babo. Kwakungewona umsebenzi wabo. Asiwona amaqhawe, singothisha. Asiwona amaqhawe, singothisha.

Lapho Amaphupho Ehluleka

Unyaka wami wokugcina wokufundisa ekilasini kube yiwona onzima kakhulu. Hhayi nje ngenxa yezifundo engizifundisayo, ubukhulu bekilasi lami, noma umthwalo womsebenzi, kodwa ngenxa yokwanda kwengcindezi engikuzwa kubafundi bami. Izingane zethu zingama-canaries emayini yethu yamalahle yaseMelika (isithombe esinayo incazelo entsha ngesikhathi sikaTrump). Uma ngibabuza ngezabo Impilo yengqondo, ngihlala ngikhungathekiswa indlela abaningi abavuma ngayo ukucindezeleka nokukhathazeka. Bahlale bekhathele futhi benengcindezi. Ngakho abaningi babo bazwakalisa ukuphelelwa ithemba okuqhubekayo ngekusasa labo. Futhi ngingaphikisana kanjani nalokho? Lapho uminyene ekhoneni lekilasi elimnyama, uzilolongela ukufa kwakho, kuba nzima ukuzwa sengathi likhona ithemba lekusasa elihle.

Angisaphuphi ngokungenangqondo ukushintsha izimpilo zomfundi wami ngamunye. Imigomo yami ibe mincane: ukwenza izingane zitshale imali ekufundeni, ukuba ummeli wazo, ukuzilalela, ukwakha ikharikhulamu efanele, ukuguqula ikilasi libe yindawo ebalulekile nephumelelayo. Kunoma iyiphi isemester enginikeziwe, ngikwenza kube yinto ehamba phambili ukufunda ngokushesha amagama abafundi bami abangaphezu kwamakhulu amabili, ukuze ngingene nabo kaningi ngangokunokwenzeka futhi ngizame ukunakekela izidingo zabo ezihlukile neziyinkimbinkimbi.

Ngizama ukufaka noma yimaphi amandla engeziwe nokunaka enginakho ekusebenzeni nabafundi bami abancishwe inyumbazana, ngazi ukuthi, njengowesifazane omhlophe, osezingeni eliphakathi, cishe bazongibona njengenxusa lesimiso esiqinisa izingqimba esezivele zikhona zokuhlukaniswa. Nokho, angisazizwa sengathi ngingakwazi ukusindisa noma iyiphi yazo. Angizwa nokuthi umsebenzi wami lowo. Umsebenzi wami uwukunikeza indawo yokubuza nokuveza umbono.

Uma ngiwenza kahle lowo msebenzi, okungenani ngizosiza abafundi bami ekutholeni amazwi abo. Kodwa ngikholwe, kuwumsebenzi kaSisyphean. Bangamatshitshi phela. Isimo sabo esingokomzwelo sishintsha umzuzu nomzuzu, usuku nosuku. Bangena ekilasini lami beneminyaka engu-15 kuya kwengu-18 yokuhlangenwe nakho okuphilayo, imikhiqizo ye-dynamics yomndeni wabo kanye nomphakathi wabo. Amahora engiwachitha nabo, noma ngabe anomthelela kangakanani, awakwazi ukudlula lawo maqiniso. Abanye babo bazozizwa bebonwa futhi bezwakala ekilasini lami, futhi abanye babo, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi ngenzani, bazozizwa bengabonakali, bengabonakali, futhi belahlekile.

Edonsa i-Trigger

Isikole yindawo lapho intsha izama khona izithembiso eziphakeme ze-American Dream. Thina bothisha sihambisa umyalezo wokuthi ungaba noma yini, yenza noma yini. Funda ngokuzikhandla ngokwanele futhi uzokwenza okuthile ngawe empilweni yakho, noma ngabe kunezinselelo endleleni. Zenzele abangani, zitholele isoka noma intombi, futhi uzokhuphuka lelo zinga lomphakathi. Thola indlela yakho kanye nethalente lakho futhi umhlaba kuzoba okwakho ukuthatha.

Njengabafundisi siyazi ukuthi akekho umuntu onothando futhi ozibandakanyayo njengosemusha owenza into ayithandayo. Thepha kulokho kuqina nokugxila kwe-myopic futhi unethuba le-alchemy yokufundisa yangempela. Kodwa kuthiwani uma zonke izithembiso thina (kanye nabanye abaningi) esizenza ngokusobala noma ngokusobala zingenakufinyeleleka ngokuphawulekayo futhi labo bafundi abafanayo baya ngokuya bekwazi lokho? Kuthiwani uma ungumfundi wemibala noma umfundi ongabhalisiwe futhi i-American Dream ayizange ithenjiswe kuwe kwasekuqaleni? Kuthiwani uma ungabatholi kalula abangane? Kuthiwani uma izingcindezi ezingokomzwelo onazo zinzima kakhulu futhi zonke izikole ezimele ziyisikhumbuzo sakho esingapheli? Kuthiwani uma, njengomphakathi esiyingxenye yawo, isikole siba indawo yokufeyila, hhayi into engenzeka?

Uma intsha iphumelela entweni eyodwa, ihogela ubuzenzisi. Izingane ziyakwazi ukubona ngemibono yezithembiso eziningi kangaka. Futhi izingane noma imuphi uthisha manje azibonayo cishe zizozibuza: Ziyini ngempela kulo mhlaba esiwakhile? Yiziphi izinhlungu ezingazange zibonwe, zinganakwa?

Kuyamangaza yini ukuthi labo abangeneliseki kakhulu phakathi kwabo, labo abazizwa bedakelwe kakhulu isethembiso esaphulwa salelo Phupho, babuyela endaweni abanomuzwa wokuthi behluleke kakhulu kuyo, inhlangano yesikhungo eyayithenjiswe ukuthi yayizobanikeza insindiso futhi kusobala ukuthi ayizange ? Baletha ubudlelwano babo bomphakathi nobemindeni obuhlulekile, ukuqaphela kwabo ukuthi Iphupho alizange libe ngabo kwasekuqaleni, futhi - ngenani elikhulayo lamacala - I-AR-15s noma ezinye izikhali ezibulalayo. Bathola imali evale isheke ngokudonsa isibhamu, baqede leyo nkohliso, futhi ngokunokwenzeka baqede izimpilo zabafundi nothisha ngesikhathi belapho.

Ukudubula leso sibhamu kuyisenzo sokugcina salaba bafana - futhi kuze kube manje abafana - kufanele unikele. Leyo myopia nokugxila ngokuphelele, okuholela ekufeni ezikoleni zethu, kubonisa ukuphelelwa ithemba nokungahloniphi okubonwa kwabaningi balaba badubuli. Kuyinto okufanele, okungenani ezingeni elincane, ijwayele kunoma yimuphi uthisha wasekilasini kulezi zinsuku. Cabanga ngokukhungatheka okungenagama, okungenasici kanye nokuphelelwa ithemba okushayela ingane ukuba ithathe izikhali zempi futhi ibulale ngamabomu njengoba ukwehluleka kwe-American Dream kudlalwa egazini.

Melika othandekayo: Unginike umsebenzi ongenakwenzeka futhi wangilahla ngokwehluleka kwami ​​ukuwenza. Manje, wena - noma okungenani Umongameli, lo I-NRA, futhi ezihlukahlukene osopolitiki - ngiqinisekise ukuthi ngingakwazi ukuzihlenga ngokubamba isibhamu, ngidubule, bese ngiqeda ukuphelelwa ithemba. Cha, ngiyabonga: Angifuni ukubamba leso sibhamu futhi ngeke ngibe yileso sihlangu. Ngokungokomfanekiso noma ngokomzimba angikwazi ukusindisa abafundi bami.

Esikucelayo ezinganeni zethu, kothisha bethu, nasezikoleni zethu akufani nanoma yini esiyicela kunoma yimuphi umuntu noma kunoma isiphi isikhungo. Sifela izingane zethu phezu kwe-altare lezithembiso ezingaphumelelanga zomphakathi bese sizibuza ukuthi kungani zilokhu zibuya nezibhamu ezandleni zazo.

U-Belle Chesler unguthisha wezobuciko obubonakalayo e-Beaverton, e-Oregon.