Mhoro,
Heino chikamu chekupedzisira chekuteedzerwa kweChikamu Chekutanga neChiviri chememoir Kurangarira Mangwana naMichael Albert, chakagoverwa mugore rino rechi40 kubva Kuruboshwe Kutsva uye Chivabvu 68. Zvimwe zvikamu zvebhuku zvine chekuita nesangano uye kuvaka kwekufamba, mazano, dzidzo. , zvichingodaro uye zvinoreva.
Chapter 16
Mutema Akafanana Naani?
Bar Mitzvahed kupinda muRadicalism?
Hazvisi zvekuvharira muvakidzani wako izvozvo
munhu anogutsikana nehungwaru hwake.
โ Dostoyevsky
Chitendero chave chine zvakawanda zvokuita nezvematongerwe enyika mutsika munhoroondo yose, sezvazvinoita nhasi. Kusangana kwangu kwechitendero kwaisanyanya kukosha muhupenyu hwangu, kunze kwembiri. Ini ndiri muJudha, zvishoma, ndinofunga. Ndakaenda kuSandesikuru yechiJudha kutozosvikira Bar Mitzvah yangu, uko kwakareva kuenda kumakirasi zuva rimwe pavhiki pashure pokunge chikoro chenguva dzose chabuda kwegore kana kuti kupfuura. Kuchikoro chechiHebheru ndakapanduka kaviri, uye ndinofunga kuti zviito izvi zvinogona kunge zvakakonzera zvakazotevera.
Chikoro changu chechitendero chaida kuti tinyore ongororo yebhuku kuti tipasa. Ndaive neimwe, yekuchikoro cheruzhinji, zvichienda mberi Moby Dick. Saka ndakaripa, ndisingatarise kuti rakanga risiri pandandanda (mukuona kwangu) mabhuku echitendero anosekesa ataifanira kusarudza kubva maari. Mudzidzisi haana kubvuma rondedzero yangu, izvo zvaireva kuti ndaizove munhu wekutanga munhoroondo yetemberi kusiiwa kubva kuBar Mitzvah. Ndakaramba kuita imwe. Amai vangu vakaenda kuchikoro, vakauya kutemberi, ndokuvaudza Moby Dick zvaida kupfuura runyorwa rwese rwemazita avaive narwo uye kuti vanobvuma zvirinani ongororo yangu kana paizove nedambudziko guru. Vakabvuma ndikapedza. Handina kungobatsirwa chete nekuzvipira kwaamai kundiitira hondo, zvimwe ndakadzidza kurwira vamwe.
PaBar Mitzvah, mutambo unogamuchira vakomana vechiJudha vane makore gumi nematatu mune inonzi nechitendero murume, unofanira kudzokorora ndima dzinoverengeka muchiHebheru. Ndaisafanira kuziva ndima dzacho nomusoro, ndaingodziverenga. Ndakatoshaya kuti vairevei. Ndaifanira kungoataura zvakarurama, zvinonzwika, pamberi peungano. Fungidzira kuremekedzwa kwegamuchidzanwa kwakafuridzirwa ikoku. Chero zvazvingava, handina kukwanisa kuzviita. Kusaziva zvazvaireva, kubudirira kwaitsamira pandangariro yerote inoshandiswa kumanzwi asina kurongeka. Ndiro raiva dambudziko rangu rakaipisisa. Vabereki vangu vaifanira kubhadhara mufundisi wemutemberi kuti andidzidzise kuita hunyanzvi hwepamusoro.
Zuva guru rakasvika uye ndakadzokorora mitsetse yangu, zvishoma, uye ipapo rabhi, munhu akachenjera uye ane hanya, akandidana kuti titaure, zvakanyanya chinyararire kuti ungano inzwe, pamberi peTorah yakazaruka. Saka ndakanga ndiri Rabhi Schankman, vateereri vepashure, Torah, neni. Izvi aizviitira munhu wese achigadziridzwa kumurume. Iye akati, "Michael, makorokoto nekuva murume, uye ndinoziva kuti tichakuona uchitevera dzidziso yako yechitendero mukirasi yetemberi semesita inotevera, handizvo here?" Pfungwa yacho yaiva nyoreโwaingofanira kuti hongu uye kana wairamba pava paya zvoreva kuti wanyepa. Kana kuti waifanira kuramba, naye akakutarisa pasi uye achikurudzira hongu. Ndinofungidzira kuti nguva iyoyo yakakonzera kuti vakomana vakawanda vanyepe uye vakazozviruramisa uye nokudaro vakabatsira vakomana vazhinji kuti vaone kuti kunyepa kwaive kuita kwakanaka, uko, kana uchinge wafunga nezvazvo, kwaive kubudirira kwechiitiko chitsvene chechitendero. Chero zvazvingava, ndakamutarisa ndokuti, โAiwa, ndapedza. Muna 1960, ndakanga ndisingazivi kuti ndotaura sei kuti โNdabuda muno,โ izvo zvaizova zvakakwana. Handifungi kuti vana vakawanda vakaudza Rabbi Schankman chokwadi. Zvichida zvimwe zvikamu zvezvakaita kuti ndive mukuru gare gare zvaive munzvimbo pazera regumi nematatu.
Ndinorangarira chimwe chinhu pamusoro peBar Mitzvah yangu. Mutambo wapera, ini nedzimwe shamwari dzangu takakwira padenga rekirabhu kwayaiitirwa. Mumwe munhu aiva nefodya uye takaronga kusvuta kekutanga. Handiyeuki kuti vamwe vakanakidzwa sei nemudzanga wavo wekutanga, asi ndakakweva kamwe chete ndikabatwa nechikosoro, ndikapotsa ndarasikirwa nekudya kwangu kwemasikati. Iyoyo yakanga iri nguva yokupedzisira yandakaedzwa nomudzanga, uyo wakanga uri muuyo wakanakisisa kwete bedzi wokupedza kufunda kwangu, asi wenguva yangu yose yandakapedzera pamitambo ipi neipi yechitendero zvachose. Tichifunga nezvechimiro-chisina-kugutsikana chimiro chezviitiko zvangu zvishoma zvechiJudha, zvakanga zvakaoma kwandiri kuti ndive chimwe chinhu kunze kwekuzvidza chitendero, kunyanya chiJudha, kusvikira ndawana zvikonzero zvezvematongerwe enyika zvekufunga patsva mamwe maitiro angu.
Vatema neni
Pfungwa dzemunhu mukuru dzakaita semboni yeziso
Kuwedzera kwechiedza chaunovhenekera pairi, ndiko kuwedzera kwazvinoita.
โOliver Wendell Holmes, Mudiki.
Chikamu chehupenyu hwemunhu mu
Taiva nemumwe mubatsiri wepamba ainzi
Pamusoro pezvimwe zviitiko zverusaruraganda muupenyu hwangu pachangu, ndakaenda kuchikoro chesekondari chiri mudhorobha. Taundi racho raiva nevanhu vakavhengana. Rutivi rwangu rwakanga rwuri nyanzvi, ruchena, uye rwakapfuma. Kune rimwe divi kwaive nenharaunda diki yevatema pamwe nenzvimbo yakakura yevachena vanoshanda. Chikoro changu chegiredhi chaive chichena chose uye junior high yangu yaive ichena zvakanyanya kupfuura imwe junior high yemudhorobha. Chikoro chepamusoro chakazvisanganisa zvese muchikoro chimwe, asi netsika dzakasiyana nemakirasi.
Ndichiri mukomana mudiki handina kana shamwari imwe mutema uye pasina kana munhu wemutema wandaiziva. Hapana maLatinos, hapana maAsia, vanhu vachena chete. Kuchikoro chesekondari ndaiziva vakomana vashoma vachena pazvikwata zvakakurumbira zvenhabvu nebasketball, uye mumwe mutambi mutema, kana kumboti mhoroi. Chokwadi ndakadzimura mapapu angu sevamwe vanhu, kunyangwe ndichiziva chikamu chidiki chevatambi. Makirasi angu ekugadzirira kukoreji akanga ari machena zvikuru. Makirasi angu epamusoro-soro, akananga kuIvy League, akanga akachena zvachose. Izvi zvakaitika sangano rinorwira kodzero dzevanhu risati rachinja nzanga. Ndakanga ndiri mukuru wechikoro chesekondari muna 1964โ65.
Saka ruzivo rwangu rwepachangu rwerudzi rwakanga rusipo kusvika pachikoro chesekondari, uye kuMIT, zvakare, zviyero zvaityisa. Muuhama hwangu pakanga pasina chinhu kunze kwevachena; vose kunze kwevaviri kana vatatu vaiva vaJudha. Ndakagara kunze kwecampus, gare gare, nevarungu. Dhipatimendi refizikisi raive nevadzidzi vatema vashoma, vangangove vashoma veLatinos, uye nepo kwaive nevaAsia vazhinji, izvi zvaisawanzosimudza nyaya dzedzinza. Zvirokwazvo, hapana akatarisana nerusaruro kana kumutsa zvisungo kudzamara kuratidzira kwaita kuti zviitike. Kunyange zvakadaro, handizivi kuti nei kana kuti sei, panguva yandakanga ndava kukoreji ndakanga ndisingachaiti rusaruraganda nehasha. Zvichida yakauya muchikamu kubva kuvabereki vangu, muchikamu kubva pakuverenga, uye zvakanyanya kubva kune isina kukanganiswa pfungwa, kana pamwe chiitiko chaMichael Schwerner.
MIT Kutema
Pane dzimwe nguva dzandaifunga kuti handingagari kwenguva refu
Asi ikozvino ndinofunga kuti ndave kukwanisa Kuenderera mberi
โSam Cooke
Sezvineiwo, ndinorangarira chiitiko chimwe chete chakanyanya nhangemutange ndiri kuMIT. Ndaitsvaga mutungamiri weboka revadzidzi uye ndakaenda kusangano revadzidzi vechitema (BSU) ndichitsvaga rutsigiro. MIT yakanga yakachena kwazvo zvokuti BSU yakanga iri nzira yehupenyu yevatema pamusasa avo vaifanira kurwira nzvimbo duku yemaonero avo, tsika, uye chiremera. Ndakapa hurukuro yaiwanzoita, yehondo, ine hasha, uye ine hasha zvikuru, uye vateereri vakandinetsa. Vadzidzi vatema veMIT vangangove vekutanga mumhuri dzavo kuenda kukoreji, kana vaibva kumhuri dzechirungu kwenguva refu vachiziva koreji asi vakaparadzaniswa nenharaunda dzevatema mumaguta avo. Waive musanganiswa wakaoma, wakafanana nemakampasi mazhinji. Nhamba dzinoverengeka dzenhengo dzeBSU dzakandiudza kuti ndiri kuvakanganisa kufambira mberi munharaunda. Ndakanga ndisina kodzero yekuvhiringa hupenyu hwecampus. Boka iri, randaifanira kunge ndinaro sevatsigiri vepamusoro, nemamwe mazwi, rakambomira semamwe mativi ecampus, richinetsekana pamusoro pezvaizoitika mukubudirira kwavo mune ramangwana.
Vakanditi ndabuda muhurongwa. Ndikati, kwete, vakanga. Kubudirira mune sainzi hakuregi kuregeredza hondo mukati
Halloween Bash
zvino ndichati handizi, kana kutongofarira kuunza chero nzira, kuenzana kwemagariro nezvematongerwo enyika emarudzi evachena nevatema. Ini se sezvinoita mumwe murume anoda kuva nechinzvimbo chepamusoro rudzi rwevachena.
โAbraham Lincoln
Imwe Halloween, ndichigara kuSouth End yeBoston ndiri pakati-kati munhoroondo yangu yekushanda paSouth End Press, ndakaenda kunotora chimwe chinhu kubva kuchitoro chemishonga chiri pedyo. Ndakafamba ndokutora zvandaida ndokunanga kumba. Kwakanga kuchinaya, kusiri kungonaya asi kwakanyorova, uye kwakanga kuchinaya kwave kunodoka. Paive nechikwata chevechidiki vatema vechidiki vangangoita mayadhi makumi matatu kubva. Vakanditarisa, ndakavatarisa, uye zvaiva pachena kuti ndakanga ndiri munyatwa huru. Vakabva vatiza, vachiseka nekundituka, vachindityisidzira e
ZNetwork inopihwa mari chete kuburikidza nerupo rwevaverengi vayo.
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