Umthombo: Counterpunch
Umngane wami omkhulu wasesikoleni esiphakeme wayengena ephuma ejele eminyakeni engamashumi amabili edlule yokuphila kwakhe. Wayengumlutha wezidakamizwa. Lokhu kwakungaphambi kobhubhane lwe-opioid; ubuthi bakhe kwakuyi-crack cocaine. Uyise wayeyisidakwa esithukuthele, enobudlova futhi unina wayengowesifazane ophukile onesifo esingamahlalakhona. Umngane wami wachitha ingxenye enkulu yokuphila kwakhe njengomuntu omdala ezama ukumnakekela.
Ukuba yisigqila sakhe kwamenza wadinga ukheshi ngaso sonke isikhathi, njengoba kwakumenza angakwazi ukubamba umsebenzi oqhubekayo. Kwamqhuba ukuthi enze izinto eziwubulima. Wake wantshontsha imoto yami futhi wadayisa izincwadi zesikole zendodana yami, ezazisesihlalweni esingemuva, ukuze athole imali. Wayengibhaklaza emnyango ebusuku kakhulu, ecela imali yokuvimba abadayisi ayebakweleta ukuba bangamshaya. Wagcina entshontshe izimpahla endlini kamama wakhe waze wazibamba. Waya ejele ngalokho, kwathi iminyaka eminingana eyalandela waqhubeka ebuyela ejele ngenxa yokwephulwa kwemithetho ehlukahlukene yokuvivinywa: imvamisa ukubanjwa ephuza esidlangalaleni endaweni ethile.
Ekugcineni wadonsa izinyanga ezingu-13 ejele likahulumeni, lapho adansela khona umugqa phakathi kwamaqembu ezigebengu anobudlova, acwasa ngokwebala iziphathimandla zasejele ezaziwavumela ukuba ahlakulele. Wenqaba ukuhlanganyela nabacwasi abamhlophe kodwa wabhekwa njengezigelekeqe ezimnyama. Wathola ukushaywa ngabantu nhlangothi zombili kodwa futhi wayekwazi, ngezinye izikhathi, ukuba ngumenzi wokuthula phakathi kwabo.
Lapho ephuma esibayeni, ukuphila kwakhe kwaqhubeka kakhulu njengakuqala. Wazama ukuzibeka njengosonkontileka ozimele, elungisa izindlu, efulela, ebeka umata, esebenza egcekeni. Umama wakhe washona. Wayesenesikhathi eside elahlekelwa ilungelo lokukhulisa indodana yakhe okuwukuphela kwayo. Wayesazabalaza ne-crack, kodwa wadambisa ubuhlungu bakhe bengqondo ikakhulukazi ngotshwala. Washona lapho eneminyaka engamashumi amahlanu ubudala, etholakala endlini yakhe eshibhile ezinsukwini ezimbili noma ezintathu ngemva kokufa kwakhe, isidumbu siqhuma ngenxa yokushisa okushisayo kwehlobo laseTennessee.
Yilokho kuphela. Kwakuyimpilo yakhe leyo. Yilokho kuphela abenakho. Wayengumlutha wezidakamizwa. Ubeyisigebengu esilahlwe yicala. Wayephindelela. Wayengumqambimanga nesela. Wayengumphefumulo olahlekile ongasenamsebenzi emphakathini ayehlala kuwo wabe esefa. Yilokho kuphela.
Wayephinde - ngaphandle kwehaba noma imizwa ye-nostalgic - engumuntu onomusa kunabo bonke, onobuhle kakhulu, ovulekile futhi omnene ongahlangana naye. Wayewuthanda umculo ngentshiseko ejulile kangangokuthi wathinta umnyombo womhlaba. Amaphutha akhe amhlukumeza njengamalahle ashisayo. Wayengaqondi ukuthi kwenzekeni kuye, kungani engakwazi ukubalekela ukulutheka, kungani ingqondo yakhe yayiphithene kangaka, kungani yayingayeki ukubhonga isikhathi eside ngokwanele ukuba aphinde aziqoqe futhi abe ngokoqobo, abe ephelele, abe evamile. .
Washaywa futhi esongelwa ebusheni bakhe. Ngisho nasesikoleni samabanga aphakeme wayeshaywa uvalo. Wayevame ukunyonyoba eza ekhaya phakathi kwamabili ngemva kodweshu noyise futhi azame ukulala othangweni lwegceke lakithi, noma kuvulandi ongemuva. Ngenhlanhla, izinja zazihlale zisixwayisa, futhi sasimthola futhi simngenise, simenzele umbhede kusofa. Wayewuthanda umndeni wami ngothando oluvuthayo olungazange luphele iminyaka engu-50 esazi.
Ngicabanga ngomngane wami noma nini lapho ngizwa usopolitiki noma umhlaziyi ononya echitha ubuntu nesithunzi sezigebengu neziboshwa. Ngicabange ngomngane wami namuhla, ngenkathi ngifunda indaba ka-Jonathan Faircloth, isiboshwa esineminyaka engama-33 ubudala e-Alabama ubulawa umdlavuza wamabele nowesibindi oshiywe iziphathimandla zingawunakanga. Naye wayesephindele ejele ngenxa yokwephulwa kwemithetho yokuvivinywa - omunye umlutha wezidakamizwa okwathi, ngenkathi ezama ukwenza ukuphila okuvamile komkakhe nezingane, waphinde wahlaselwa ukulutheka kwakhe.
Ngacabanga ngomngane wami lapho ngifunda impendulo kaSheriff wesifunda sase-Etowah uJonathon Horton ngemva kokuba abezindaba base-Alabama bembuze ngalo muntu oshiywe efa ngaphandle kokwelashwa:
โUsebenzisa ukugula kwakhe njengezaba zokuphuma ejele ephindelela. Ngokwabantu abavamile, wavele waphelelwa yithuba. Ngakho ijaji likuhoxisile [icala lakhe] futhi lathi kufanele asebenze izinsuku zakhe,โ kusho uHorton.
Usebenzisa ukugula kwakhe - umdlavuza wakhe wekholoni we-Stage 4 manje osusabalele esibindini futhi uzombulala ngonyaka ozayo uma kungenjalo ngaphambili - "njengezaba." Izaba. Umdlavuza wesigaba 4 njengezaba.
Ngifunde lawa mazwi, futhi ngicabanga ngenqwaba yamadodana omalukazana ezweni lonke - izinkunzi ezimnyama zigqoke iyunifomu yazo eyisiphukuphuku elukiwe njengale goober ka-Etowah, izimbongolo ezigqoke izingubo ezigqokile zikhipha ubuxhwanguxhwangu obungenabuntu ku-Twitter, osopolitiki abahlakaniphile abaklami. amasudi, kanye nezigidi nezigidi zabantu abazibulala ngokomoya ngokubheka ukukhala okunonya, okunenhlamba kwalamakhoba ahambayo abolayo.
Ngiyabacabanga, futhi ngicabange ngomngane wami - isigebengu esiphindelela ephula i-parole-isigebengu sezidakamizwa esingenamsebenzi emphakathini esasihlala kuwo - futhi ngiyazi - ngoNkulunkulu, ngiyazi! - ngikuluphi uhlangothi.
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