Ndabe ndilapho kubethwa...
Ndabe ndilapho kubethwa
kwaye ukhumbule isithsaba se-Iron Age
icinezelwe ebunzi.
Apho...ibotshelelwe ngethwathwa
ezingubeni…ufume yintlungu
bakhumbuze isithandwa esoyisiweyo
lihule elinjani kwaye lilungile...intombi enyulu.
Ndiyazi...Ndikhe ndayiva ingxabano ngaphambili:
ihlabathi alazi nto ngaye
ngoko akazi nto...ngoMhlaba
okanye amanyala eemfazwe zomnqamlezo.
Ngeso sizathu ndiyakuqonda oku kubethelelwa:
nguLusifa alwa naye
kwaye ilandele…kwaye ikhokele ingelosi nganye ewileyo
ezintolongweni zesihogo… ngokuchasene nabaphoswa ezulwini.
Ngapha koko masingenzi ngathi utata...umsulwa ebubini
kuba ibingazalelwanga emyezweni
hayi olo hlobo…yentiyo.
Kwaye needemon zinecebo lazo
ekukhuseleni abafeli-nkolo
emzimbeni wakho ongenamanxeba.
Musani ke ukundixelela ngonyeliso
hayi xa abantliziyo zihlambulukileyo besazi...
ukuphelelwa lithemba nokuphelelwa lithemba...
kunye nesithixo esingashukunyiswanga ngumthandazo…kuyoyikeka.
Ngoku, vumela uthuthu lwesidumbu sam lukoyikise...
ngaphandle kwakhe ... naphezu kwayo ...
phezu kwazo nje izenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho zikamesiya olahliweyo...
Ndikhethe amacala kwaye ndiyafunga...
ndihlala ndisilwa ngonaphakade...noThixo wakho!
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Ukuqhomfa
Mhla wawugcina urabhi ekubhiyozeleni ibris
nombingeleli ekubhaptizweni
iingelosi zayeka ukungqungqa.
Ngoku ndikunika ezi nyaniso njengobungqina bentlungu yam:
Isibeleko asingommangaliso kangako
njengengqondo elahlekileyo ... eyazala
kukuhleka kweentsana.
Umnquba awungcwele kangako
njengoko intliziyo...eyayicingayo
iminqweno yomntwana.
Kwaye iinyanga ezilithoba ezipheleleyo azikho nde
njengemihla ngemihla…ndiphupha umntwana ebomini
kwaye ngonaphakade eluthandweni lwam.
Intliziyo yam ayiyi kuphola; abuyi kubuya ubumsulwa bakho.
Kuba ndinesiva osishiye njengesikhumbuzo ... sothando lwakho.
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Ndikhumbula ndisengumntwana...
amahlathi...
kwaye ngokunjalo...
kukude
apho umnyama...
wathembisa ukuchukumisa umhlaba...
kunye necala lenduli
neentaka ezihlala khona.
Sakha amaqunube ngoko
kwaye watshayela indlela enqumla kwihlathi eliluhlaza
efunga ukuba soze aveze
iimfihlo...
silibele ngoku.
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Kulula ukuthetha nomntu wesithathu
ukunixelela into endiyaziyo ngaye.
Wayecaphukile...nawe
…nebhedi engenanto
...kunye naye.
Yiyo loo nto emkile
ifowuni ivaliwe
ukukulumkisa
... ngomsindo wakhe
... namampunge akhe abuleweyo
... kunye noloyiko lwakhe lweefowuni.
Kwaye yeyona nto ibalulekileyo endinokukuxelela yona.
Akanabhongo
…akakwazi ukuyiyeka inzondo yakhe
…nangenxa yezizathu ezingalunganga.
Ukuba ubumazi ngcono
uya kuqonda
ngoba
kwi11: 00 pm
ebefuna ukufowna...
ukukungcungcuthekisa...
ngothando...
yentliziyo yakhe ebuhlungu.
Kodwa indoda ayisosidenge.
Wayenobulumko ngokwaneleyo ukuba azi
wayengafuni ukwazi
…kwakusele kusemva kwexesha kakhulu.
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KuStefano...ngubani ongafuni ukundazi
Awuyazi kakuhle le nto kodwa bendiwucinezele umcimbi
Ibingase ndilale nomfazi wakho.
Kwakungekho lula ukungakwenzi
ukwenzela mna
lalinuka umhlaba ngaphezu kwemifuno ekrwada
wayeqeqeshwe kakuhle kwimfundiso yobuYuda
wayesazi yonke into malunga neenkosikazi zikaRodin kunye
wayemthanda uMichelangelo.
Nasi isilumkiso: Musa ukumyeka asuke phambi kwakho.
Ndingakuxelela kumava adlulileyo
abanye abafazi
… kulula ukuzibeka kwindawo engafanelekanga.
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Andizange ndikubone eTina min Square…
Andizange ndikubone eTina min Square
okanye iSt. Peters-burg
okanye kwezinye iintolongo
eWashington DC
Zange ndakubona uphefumla
irhasi yeenyembezi eParis
okanye ngamadangatye eSaigon
nakwikhulu lamawaka
ezinye izixeko kunye namaxesha
Andizange ndikubambe…usiba
ngokuba ubulambile
okanye ze
okanye ezingelwayo
okanye ufuna ukwabelana
ingqondo elahlekileyo.
So ungandixeleli ngothando okanye inkululeko
nendlela yokulwa imfazwe
kwaye ngokukodwa ungandixeleli
indlela yokukhusela abantwana.
Isiqingatha phakathi kwePentagon kunye nekliniki
incwadi yam yokuzibulala yaqala
kude ngaphambili
kwindlela eya eDachau
okanye yayiyiSirakuse
okanye Front St.
lonto indikhumbuza...andinasapho.
Ndilapha kuphela ukuze ndikulumkise
owokugqibela kwiihippies
…usaphila.
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Lucifer, ngendikuthanda...
kanye…xa ubunxibe itiara…eCyber Cafe.
Kodwa ngoku unesithsaba esinqwenelekayo…sokuba nesithukuthezi sokunxiba
Yinxibe ke…yinxibe kakuhle…iba nguwe.
Kuba isihogo asinanto kwaye noSathana akasekho...ushiya wena wedwa...
Iwaka leedola zefowuni kunye newodrophu yeebhanti zokuzigcina nyulu…
nganye ibanda kuneyokugqibela.
Kwaye uphi uSathana? USathana ulahlekile… kwaye ukwindawo engasese.
USathana uzé kwiLimbo… kwaye ukoyikeka kokuzibuza… ngokungabi nathemba…
ukuba ungumchasi-Kristu ... okanye umesiya ...
okanye kukungcungcutheka kokwazi…ulahlekelwa yingqondo ngonaphakade…kwakhona.
Kwaye ufuna ukuya apho naye ... kodwa awukwazi
kuba awuyiva intliziyo yakhe ikhala:
Ndingabuya nini ekhaya…ndisuka kumlo ochasene nentiyo?
Kwaye ndingangaze ndibuye ekhaya…ndisuka kumlo ochasene nothando?
Ke ubucinga ukuba ndingaqumba njani…kwaye ukuncamisa kwam kungcamla
xa uthathe ifowuni kwi-hook kwaye utshintshe idilesi yakho ngobusuku?
Ubulindele ukuba ndiphumle…ngoxolo…ekuwonwabeni…
yezolo...ifile
Ubuphi...xa iingalo zeNdalo zazivuleka
kwakhala indoda eshiyiweyo.
Andinaziva. Andikwazi ukuhamba phezu kwamanzi. Andikwazi ukutshintsha amanzi abe yiwayini.
Andikwazi ukuba nguye.
Kwaye ndiyazibuza...uyammonela ngoku...xa wayesebeza ngoko:
Yileyo ndlela ekulindeleke ukuba ibe ngayo.
Kuba unemilenze emide nobuhle kunye namabele namathanga akho…
bakulungele ukuchukunyiswa.
Kodwa ngaba iVenus isesezulwini? Kuba i-Cupid ihambile nayo…
ukumshiya yedwa… iphupha laseNew York nokubamba izandla…
eHarlem.
Kwaye ngamanye amaxesha nam ndiyalibala...eyakhe yenzeka...
kubuhle besini sefowuni…
kunye nobuhle...zange ndazi eSpokane
ekungathandabuzekiyo ukuba sele esezingalweni zomnye...
ukurhweba ngezitshixo zegolide
ngenombolo yefowuni engabonakaliyo
kunale wanditsalela kuyo.
Emva kwayo yonke loo nto ... yayingengomculo wemibongo yam ... ilungile kwaye inomsindo
njengoPatchable kunye noMarilyn Manson
okanye awuzithandanga iincoko...
kwaye wamkelwe eLimbo, sithandwa sam…
kunye nemfazwe echasene nemfazwe...
apho ndingekaqiniseki khona...
"... njengabancinci nabangenathemba."
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Ihenyukazi Elihle
NjengoMagdala phambi kwakhe kunye neengelosi emva kwakhe
ebesaluphala…kwaye kwelinye icala…ebiza kakhulu.
Sangqubana, ngexesha lokugula…kwindawo yokugula;
Mna, ngeenkohliso zam zobungangamsha…kunye naye, ngamabali entuthumbo.
Kwakukho abafazi apho...ababephikisana bethethelela umgwebo
ngenxa yamahenyukazi emini ... namahenyukazi asebusuku.
Ihenyukazi lam lathi cwaka… ndiye ndaxambulisana…ndithandazela izithandwa.
Kwakungekho ncedo…ngoko ukubachasa…sabelana ngemidiza…nekofu
kunye nokubamba izandla ... kunye nokuwola ...
kodwa akuzange kuvunyelwene ngexabiso
…ngothando…okanye isidlo sangokuhlwa…okanye ipikiniki elangeni…wabe sele emkile.
Emva koko…ngendlela yezitrato…ndifumene idilesi andinike yona
kwaye wamenywa ... kwindawo yakhe yokhuseleko.
Siye saphinda sathetha kwaye sawolana...kwaye ke ngemizuzu nje...
Nam bendingekho.
Ndeva loo mini ngenxa yempilo neyokugula...
wafumana iintyatyambo zam kunye nelekese kunye nomculo…unimpress
bayeka ke.
Kamva...ndabuyela kwindawo yethu yentlanganiso...njengoko ndihlala ndisenza...
kangangeentsuku okanye iiveki okanye iinyanga nangaphezulu
ndafumanisa kuphela…wayesele ekhona endilindile.
Ufumanise ukuba...bendingekatshintshi…kodwa bendinemali…
amabali amaninzi ngoku..entuthumbo neentlungu.
Wayenohlobo olulishwa lwentlupheko ...
ebengathandi…inkampani engako.
Ndikhumbula…ekuseni ngeli xesha
sasingasabambi ngezandla
nangekofu...besingasathethi
kwanemali zam zemali zaziyekile ukumchukumisa.
Into endingayikhumbuliyo...
khange aphikise...xa ndisithi mandihambe
kwaye wenza ingcebiso ekhohlakeleyo ... loo nto
Kwaba lixesha elide emva koko…kwindawo entsha yokuhlangana
apho kwafunyanwa khona ihenyukazi lam ekudala lilahlekile...
Bendisamlindile ke ngelixesha ndamva esithi.
"Utshintshile." Ndaqonda...ebengenayo.
Wayesemhle.
Ukuba wayenesifo ...
kukho unyango lweentlobo ezithile zolwaphulo-mthetho
kodwa akukho nyango...
ngenxa yokungazi…ukuba bendi…indawo yokulinda yobusuku obunye.
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KuBarbara noSusanne
UKUqhomfa
Kwakukho umntwana…kwaye emva kwexesha elithile…omnye
Owasweleka esemncinane kakhulu…amaxhoba okuxhatshazwa kwabantwana.
Nothando lwam kuwe lwalunganelanga ukubasindisa.
Kwaye ngenxa yoko...
umnyama awuzange uphinde ubambe isithembiso
...ukutshona kwelanga kwaphulukana nabo bonke ubuhle bayo...
nomlingo wenyanga epheleleyo…batshatyalaliswa.
Kuya kufuneka uqonde-kum akukho ntuthuzelo
…akukho nguquko– ngeentlungu ezaneleyo
…akukho ukungakholelwa kuTixo–ngokungabi nanto okwaneleyo
…akukho cathedral–kunye noThixo onamandla ngokwaneleyo
Ukuze nditshise entliziyweni yam inkumbulo yobumsulwa babo.
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Ndiyavuma...ndingunyana kaJoan waseArc
Kwaye ngenxa yobungqina ... nina banokholo kuphela
zilahlekile...
ngelixa ndinelifa...
imbeko yokunxiba isikrweqe sakhe
nokuba yindlalifa yobukroti bayo
ukuva iqela lezithunywa zezulu
ukucula…ukuphela kwethemba.
Kodwa kuba ndingumntwana wakhe
Ndibonile
emehlweni entombi
ukuphela kokuphelelwa lithemba
ezelwe ziinyembezi neziqhumiso
…yokutsha kwenyama.
Ke ekulambeni kweli bala sabelana
mayityhilwe kuwe ngoku...ngoba
Ndinenyhweba…yokuthwala
ikhaka lamazwi…encwina kwimpepho yasehlotyeni.
Kungenxa yokuba ndinesixhobo ... ulangazelelo olungcwele lomfazi
ukubona ikrele lakhe elibukhali… lixhonywe ethafeni ledabi
kwimfazwe yeentshaba… ngokuchasene nesebe lomnquma.
Kwaye eso sizathu...andinakunyotywa
ngengxoxo yoxolo
kwimibono yenkundla yakho
izama ukuzisa ubunyani...
ilizwi ngexesha ... ngenxa yenkohlakalo.
Ungandixeleli ke ngezono zokuthobeka
likratshi enindibeka ekuhendweni
…ngepolitiki yosindiso
namaphupha abaqhekeki beCawa
enxilile yiwayini yedini…kwamsikelela umntwana olambileyo
ngesigwebo… ngenxa yobusela besonka
engcwaliselwe ukondla amahlwempu.
Ngenxa yezi kunye nazo zonke ezinye izenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho zam
Ndikhethe umnyama…ukubeka ityala
... ngokundivumela ukuba ndikhumbule ...
unogumbe neendudumo...
yi-echo kuphela yezikhalo
kamama ogxothiweyo
ngubani na ondicenge ukuba ndikulumkise.
Ngoyena nyana wakhe amthandayo ogula ngokunganyangekiyo
ngomnqweno onganelisekiyo...
ukuziphindezela…usuku ngalunye
umkhosi wamagqirha...nzulu
ishiywe ngugqirha wotyando.
Ayingomhlola lo... ayisosifungo esi...
ngumthandazo kuphela owaphendulwa…ekuqaleni
xa ndiwolwa…ngumfazi onxibe amadangatye.
Kwaye uyayazi ubunyani besi sohlwayo.
Akhonto imbi ngabantwana bakhe.
Bayaphila kwaye baphilile
...ehlabathini
…kukuphambana oku!
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Eli nqaku lokuzibulala laqala ngaphambili…okanye kwakusemva...
Ndikhumbula ndidlala apho...
phantsi kwentamo yakho
ngaphezulu kwenqanawa yakho
ngaphantsi kwamagqabi akho
phakathi kwesandi sebhayi...
Apho sasihlala khona…kwibhedi…yeparanoia
nobuhlwempu
kunye nemali…kumculo obiweyo
kwaye sonwabele imithendeleko…ukusuka
Ubusuku baqhubeka ngonaphakade ... kwaye ngamanye amaxesha umsebenzi emasimini ...
kwaye iifektri zahlala…naxesha elide.
Eli nqaku lokuzibulala laqala emva…okanye lalingaphambi…
Ndikhumbula ndidlala apho
ngaphantsi kwenkaba yakho
ngaphezulu kwamathanga akho
ngaphantsi kwamagqabi akho
kodwa ndiphakamise intloko yam kwivumba lolwandle lwakho
ukuphendula isicelo kwigumbi elilandelayo...
yeswekile...yekofu...yeti...
okanye enye ibhotile ebiweyo…yewayini yexabiso eliphezulu.
Kwakulula ukuzenza ngoko…de kube ngamazwi ethu okugqibela
oko sikulibele qho kusasa...
besesiyeke ukuthetha...kubusuku obudlulileyo.
Ngapha koko…mhlawumbi akunamsebenzi…ukuba saxokisana
kuba ndiyazi…nabakhaliphileyo… banayo
... ebusweni benyaniso.
Ekuhambeni kwexesha...ndiye ndafumanisa ukuba iminxeba ibukhali kunamazwi...
ikhokelela kwiincakuba...
ekuphela kobungqina…kufuneka ndiyazi…amanxeba okungabikho kwakho
isandikhathaza nangoku.
Yiyo loo nto bendixoka
ukuze ukholelwe ... le nyaniso ingcolileyo:
eyona ndlela iqinisekileyo ... ukuya kwelona kuphela izulu nawe endandilazi
yayidlula kwindlela egangathiweyo yesihogo
ndibunjwe yintiyo yeentolongo endiphuma kuzo.
Kodwa ngoku...ukuthamba kwam kungabuthanda ubuqabane…
nkqu ezingalweni zomfazi ongaphantsi ...
naye ongakhathaliyo ... malunga nezithuko ezinjalo.
Mhlawumbi ndibambelele...ekungabinayo inkohlakalo eyaneleyo eseleyo
ukuthenga ubumsulwa obungakumbi…ngamathambo…abantwana abaninzi
…ngubani oza kungcwatyelwa apha.
Kuba ngoku sele ilixesha lomlindo ukuya esiphelweni sebali lethu kunye...
Ndandilapho ngobunye ubusuku…intlungu kunye nothando lweza…kwaye ndafela ezingalweni zakho.
So ndixolele...esi kuphela kwesipho somtshato nentsikelelo
Ndinishiyele nobabini:
Kuzo zonke iingelosi ezintle nezimbi…
Ndiyazi kwaye ndithanda kwaye ndakuthiya…
ubunguye wonke uThixo endakha ndaphupha ngaye ... nangaphezulu.