U-Amir ngumfana oneminyaka engama-22 ubudala wase-Irani owabanjwa ngamapolisa angokuziphatha e-Iran njengenxalenye yephulo elikhulu lokubambisa kwi-Intanethi elijolise kumafanasini. Wabethwa waza wangcungcuthekiswa ngoxa wayeseluvalelweni, wagrogriswa ngokubulawa, waza wabethwa izihlandlo ezili-100. Waqhwesha e-Iran ngo-Agasti, kwaye ngoku useTurkey, apho ulindele ukunikezelwa kwendawo yokukhosela lilizwe elinobuhlobo abathandana namafanasini.
Kudliwanondlebe lweyure ezimbini ngefowuni kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo evela eTurkey, u-Amir - ngomguquleli - unike ingxelo eyoyikisayo, yokuqala yeRiphabhlikhi yamaSilamsi yase-Iran ukuqhekeka okukhulu kunye nokuchasana kwabantu abathandana nabasetyhini, okuthe kwatshayela u-Amir. yena lixhoba layo. Nali ibali lika-Amir:
U-Amir usuka eShiraz, isixeko esinabantu abangaphezu kwesigidi kumzantsi-ntshona we-Iran apho u-Shah wazama ukwenza "iParis yase-Iran" ngeminyaka yee-1960 kunye nee-1970, etsala abantu abangabalulekanga abathandana nabathandana nabo kunye nokwenza iShiraz ibe yindawo ethandwayo yeholide yase-Iranian. amafanasini - kodwa emva kwe-revolution ye-1979 ekhokelwa ngu-Ayatollah Khomeini, i-Shiraz yayijoliswe njengophawu lwe-taaghoot (i-decadence).
Utata ka-Amir wabulawa kuhlaselo lwerhasi kwimfazwe yase-Iran-Iraq ngo-1987, esiba-kwigama elisemthethweni leRiphabhlikhi yamaSilamsi - "umfeli-nkolo," usapho lwakhe olusindileyo lwalunelungelo lokufumana izibonelelo ezikhethekileyo. kunye nonyango oluvela kurhulumente.
U-Amir, owakhula nonina, umkhuluwa kunye noodade wabo ababini, uthi รขโฌลBendiyazi ukuba ndili-gay ukususela xa ndandineminyaka emi-5 okanye emi-6 - ndandisoloko ndikhetha ukudlala namantombazana. Ndaba namava okwesondo okuqala kunye nendoda xa ndandineminyaka eli-13 ubudala. Kodwa akukho mntu kusapho lwam owayesazi ukuba ndili-gay.โ Ukubanjwa kuka-Amir okokuqala ngokuba yi-gay kwenzeka kwiminyaka emibini edlulileyo. รขโฌลNdandikwitheko labucala lamafanasini, malunga nolutsha olumalunga nama-25 apho, sonke singabahlobo abasenyongweni. Omnye wabantwana, u-Ahmed Reza - onoyise wayeyikholoneli kwiinkonzo zezobuntlola, nowayesaziwa ngamapolisa ukuba usisitabane - wasiqweqwedisa, walumkisa abasemagunyeni ukuba kuza kwenzeka eli qela labucala. U-Ahmed walinda kwade kwafika wonke umntu, emva koko wabiza iOfisi yokuPhakanyiswa koBulungisa kunye noThintelo lweVice, ekhokelwa eShiraz nguColonel Safaniya, owathi emva kwemizuzu embalwa wagqogqa iqela. Ucango lwavuleka, kwangena amapolisa, esithukaโekhwaza esithi, โNgubani ongezantsi? Ngubani oyena uphezulu?รขโฌโข kwaye wasibetha, ekhokelwa nguColonel Javanmardi. Xa kukho umntu ozama ukubanqanda ukuba babethe umququzeleli wetheko, babethwa ngesitshizi sepepile. Elinye leqela lethu lalingumntu othanda ukwabelana ngesondo - amapolisa amqhwaba ubuso kanobom amgqobhoza indlebe waze waphelela esibhedlele. U-Ahmed Reza, i-gay snitch, wayechonga wonke umntu njengoko amapolisa asibetha.
โAmapolisa athabatha amashiti, awakrazula aza asivala amehlo, asiphosa evenini, aza asithatha asisa kwisisele esikwikomkhulu leSebe Lezangaphakathiโayesazi sonke ngamagama,โ ubalisa uAmir. Abantu base-Irani bahlala besoyika iSebe lezangaphakathi, elinegama elifana nelo elalisakuba likomkhulu le-KGB yaseSoviet, kwaye iintolongo zabo zibethe uloyiko ezintliziyweni zabantu ngendlela awayenza ngayo uLubianka owayedume kakubi. UAmir uthi, รขโฌลNdandingumntu wesithathu ukuncinwa. Amapolisa aye athatha iividiyo ezazithathwe epatini, kwenye yazo ndandicengceleza umbongo. Amapolisa athi mandiyicengceleze kwakhona. รขโฌหNgowuphi umbongo?รขโฌโข Ndatsho. Baqalisa ukundibetha entloko nasebusweni. Ndithe xa ndizama ukuphika ukuba ndili gay, bandikhulula izihlangu bandibetha ngeentambo iintende zeenyawo, iintlungu bezibuhlungu. Bendisagqume amehlo. Babefumene ii-dilds endlwini apho itheko lalikhona - bandibetha ngazo, bawafaka emlonyeni wam. Ndathi ndakubaxelela ukuba utata wam wayengumfeli-nkolo [wemfazwe yaseIran-Iraq] bandibetha ngakumbi, nangakumbi. Balihlutha ikhadi lam [elinika u-Amir ilungelo lokufela ukholo] kwaye bathi baza kuxelela idyunivesithi yasekhaya, apho ndandifunda khona iikhompyutha.
Kwangelo xesha, u-Amir uyaqhubeka, รขโฌลBaye endlwini yam, babamba ikhompyuter yam, bafumana imifanekiso ye-homoerotic ye-intanethi yabafana kuyo, kwaye bayibonisa umama. Yiloo ndlela umama afumanisa ngayo ukuba ndili-gay. Ekugqibeleni ndagwetywa ndaza ndahlawuliswa i-100,000 120 tomens [okanye malunga ne-RXNUMX, imali eninzi eIran]. Ngexesha lokundihlawulisa, ijaji yandixelela ukuba รขโฌหukuba sikuthumela kugqirha oqinisekisa ukuba umbhobho wakho ungenile nangayiphi na indlela, uya kugwetyelwa ukufa.
Uninzi lwe-anti-gay crackdown, uAmir uthi, luqhutywa yi-basiji. I-basiji luhlobo lwamapolisa angekho semthethweni phantsi kwegunya le-hard-line Revolutionary Guards (ebizwa ngokuba yiPasdaran ngesiPersi.) Yi-basiji - izigebenga ezifunyenwe kwiiklasi zolwaphulo-mthetho kunye ne-lumpen engaqeshwanga - abelwa ukuba babe arhente provocateurs. , kwaye banikwe umsebenzi omdaka onobundlobongela, ngoko ke urhulumente unokubanga ukuba wayengenaxanduva ngokusemthethweni. Ngokomzekelo, ebudeni boqhankqalazo noqhanqalazo lwakutshanje lweyunivesithi, yayingabasiji ababebekwe ityala lokukhusela nokubetha abafundi abanemvukelo.
Kunyaka emva kokubanjwa kwakhe okokuqala, u-Amir ongaguqukiyo wayekwigumbi lokuncokola le-Yahoo gay kwiwebhu. รขโฌลUmntu othile ungene kwigumbi lokuncokola waza waqalisa ukundithumelela umyalezo, kodwa ndamxelela ukuba akangomntu wam ndaza ndamnika inkcazo yohlobo lomfana endifuna ukudibana naye. Emva kwemizuzu embalwa, omnye umfana waqalisa ukundithumelela umyalezo. Siye satshintshiselana ngepix, kwaye wandithumelela iphepha lakhe lewebhu ngoko nangoko - kwaye wangqamana ngqo nazo zonke iinkcazelo endizithumele kumfo wangaphambili. Kwaye kwathi emva kwexesha bobabini aba bafana babengamapolisa, babebaninzi kangangokuba babenokuza nomntu ohambelana nokhetho lobuqu lwakhe nawuphi na umfana othandana namanye kumagumbi okuncokola.
รขโฌลNgalo mfana wesibini, ndandichulumancile ngokwenene, kwaye senza usuku lwaloo mvakwemini kwindawo yokufowunela kufuphi nebhulorho yaseBagh-e-Safa. Ndifike sahamba sincokola sazane. Kodwa kwimizuzwana engama-30, ndaziva ndibeke isandla egxalabeni lam ngasemva-yayiyi-agent efihlakeleyo kwiimpahla eziqhelekileyo, ogama lakhe lalingu-Ali Panahi. Ekunye nabanye oobasiji ababini, wandibopha amakhamandela, wandikhwelisa emotweni, waza wandibuyisela kwikomkhulu leIntelligence Ministry, indawo eyoyikeka kakhulu. Apho ndakhanyela ukuba ndiyi-gay, kwaye ndakhanyela ukuba le yayiyi-gay rendezvous - kodwa bandibonisa i-printout evela kwi-chatroom yemiyalezo yam kunye ne-pix yam.
Emva koko, utsho uAmir, intshutshiso yaqalisa. รขโฌลBekukho isitulo sentsimbi embindini wegumbi - bafaka ilangatye legesi phantsi kwesitulo, bandenza ukuba ndihlale phezu kwaso njengoko isitulo sentsimbi sasisiya sishushu ngakumbi. Bandigrogrisa ngokundithumela kwinkampu yomkhosi apho onke amajoni ayeza kundidlwengula. Kwakukho ibhotile yesiselo ehleli phezu kwetafile โ uAli Panahi waxelela omnye uBasiji ukuba athathe ibhotile ayiphakamisele phezulu kum njengoko, ekhwaza, โLe nto iza kukufundisa ukuba ungaphindi uyifune inkuku!โ ndandisoyika ukuhlala kweso situlo sentsimbi njengoko sasisiya sitshisa kangangokuba ndavuma. Emva koko bayikhupha ifayile yam, bandixelela ukuba โndiyifagot edumileyoโ eShiraz. Bandibetha kanobom kangangokuba ndaphelelwa ngamandla, ndaphoswa esiseleni ndingekho zingqondweni.
โXa ndifika apho, ndabona kukho ishumi elinambini labafana abangamafanasini kunye nam esiseleni. Omnye wabo wandixelela ukuba, emva kokuba bemthabathile, bambetha baza bamnyanzela ukuba abeke imihlathi nabantu ngamagumbi okuxoxa - kwaye ngamnye kwaba bantu wayebanjiwe, abo yayingabanye abantu kweso sisele kunye nam. .รขโฌ
รขโฌลEkugqibeleni siye sasiwa ezinkundleni zamatyala, sabuzwa imibuzo. Ijaji yagweba abane kuthi, kuquka nam, ukukatswa esidlangalaleni. Iindaba zapapashwa kuwo onke amaphephandaba zokuba iqela lamafanasini liye labanjwa, namagama ethu. Ndifumene imivumbo eli-100 - ndafa ngaphambi kokuba i-100 iphele. Ukuvuka kwam, iingalo nemilenze yam yayindindisholo kangangokuba ndawa xa bendiphakamisa eqongeni endandityatyulwe kulo. Bandixelele ukuba, ukuba ndikhala, baya kundibetha ngakumbi - ngoko ndandiziluma iingalo zam kakhulu, ukuze ndingakhali, kangangokuba ndishiye amanxeba amazinyo anzulu kwiingalo zam.
Emva kolu mgibe kunye nokubethwa esidlangalaleni, ubomi buka-Amir abunyamezeleki - wayevuswa rhoqo kwikhaya lakhe ngu-basiji kunye nabameli beOfisi yokuKhuthaza isidima kunye noThintelo lwe-Vice [ecinezela "ukutenxa kokuziphatha" - izinto ezifana amakhwenkwe namantombazana ahambahamba ebambene ngezandla, amabhinqa enganxibanga mpahla ifanelekileyo yamaSilamsi okanye engazithambisi, iintlobano zesini kunye nobuhenyu.
Kodwa emva kokuxhonywa kwabafana ababini abakwishumi elivisayo kwisixeko saseMashad ngoJulayi walo nyaka- kunye noqhanqalazo lwehlabathi lonke olwalandela oko kuxhonywa - u-Amir uthi izinto ziye zabambi ngakumbi kuye nakwamanye amafanasini aseIran. U-Amir wayephantsi kweliso elithe gqolo, ehlukunyezwa, kwaye egrogriswa: รขโฌลEmva kwesiganeko sikaMashad, รขโฌหutyeleloรขโฌโข oluvela kwabasemagunyeni lwaba yinto yemihla ngemihla. Babedla ngokuza endlwini yam baze bandigrogrise. Babesazi yonke into ngayo yonke into endiyenzayo, kuyo yonke indawo endandisiya kuyo. Babendixelela kanye into endiyenzileyo qho xa ndiphuma endlini. Ibifikelele kwinqanaba lokuba ndiqale ukukrokrela abam abahlobo ngokundihlola. Kolunye lolu tyelelo, u-Ali Panahi -owayendibambe okokugqibela - wandibamba ngeenwele wandibuza ukuba ndingamunca na inkuku yakhe ukuba uyandicela. Omnye wabahlobo bam wadlwengulwa ngu-Ali Panahi, owalahlekisa umhlobo wam ngokumyeka ahambe ngaphandle kwerekhodi.
โBabendibamba ngalo lonke ixesha, bandise ukundincina emini emaqandaโxa ndiphuma endlwini, bandixakekise, bandibuze ukuba ndiza kukhangela udaka na, bangandixeleli. Komnye waba babanjwayo, uColonel Javanmardi wandixelela ukuba ukuba banokuphinda bandibambe ndiza kubulawa, รขnjengamakhwenkwe aseMashad. injalo kanye, ngokulula kakhulu, ngokucacileyo kakhulu. Akazange awathethe amazwi akhe. Siyazi sonke ukuba amakhwenkwe awayexhonywe eMashad ayengamafanasini โ izityholo zodlwengulo awayebekwe wona zazibubuvuvu, kanye njengezityholo zobusela kunye nokuxhwila. Xa ubanjwa, unyanzeliswa kukubethwa, ukungcungcuthekiswa, kunye nezoyikiso ukuba uzixele kulwaphulo-mthetho ongalenzanga. Kwenzeka ngalo lonke ixesha, kwenzeka kubahlobo bam.
โAndikwazanga ukufumana umsebenzi ngenxa yembali yetyala lam. Kuba ngokucacileyo ndandiligay andizange ndikwazi ukufumana umsebenzi naphi na, kwaye andizange ndifumane umsebenzi karhulumente ngenxa yerekhodi lam, uAmir uthi. รข Ngexesha lokugqibela amapolisa efika endlwini yakhe, uAmir wagqiba ekubeni azame ukulishiya ilizwe: รขโฌลNdayila indlela yokuthethelela, ndaza ndabaxelela ukuba kufuneka ndiye eTehran ukuze ndithathe iimviwo zam zokungena eyunivesithi. Ndandisele ndinalo ipasi leminyaka emithathu eyadlulayo. ETehran kuboleka imalana kumhlobo wam ndaza ndeza eTurkey ngebhasi. Emdeni, bendinethamsanqa lokwenene - bendisoyika kuba bendinerekhodi, kwaye bendingenamali yaneleyo yokuphuma okanye ukunyoba. incwadana yokundwendwela, wayigximfiza, waza wamvumela ukuba ahambe. Oko, utsho uAmir, kwakumalunga nenyanga edlulileyo.
Xa ebuzwa ukuba ngowuphi umyalezo afuna ukuwuthumela kwihlabathi malunga nokwenzeka e-Iran, kwaye ucinga ntoni ngekamva lakhe, uAmir uyanqumama, emva koko athi: รขโฌลImeko yamafanasini e-Iran iyoyikeka. Asinamalungelo kwaphela. Babendibetha baze bandixelele ukuba ndivume izinto endingazenzanga, ibe ndandizenza. Ama-gay kunye nama-lesbians e-Iran aphantsi koxinzelelo olungakholelekiyo - bafuna uncedo, bafuna ukungenelela kwangaphandle. Izinto zimbi ngenene. Imbi ngenene! Sihlala sixhatshazwa esidlangalaleni, sihamba esitratweni, siya evenkileni, sigodukaรขโฌยฆnaphi na naphi na, wonke umntu, wonke umntu! Omnye wabahlobo bam abathandekayo, uNima, wazibulala kwinyanga ephelileyo eShiraz. Wayengasakwazi ukuyamkela. Andazi ukuba kuzakwenzeka ntoni kum. Ndiphelelwe yimali. Andazi ukuba mandithini. Ndiyathemba ukuba abazukundibuyisela e-Iran. Baza kundibulala apho.รข
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Ukuze ufumane imvelaphi kwi-wave entsha yokucinezelwa kwama-gay e-Iran, jonga amanqaku am angaphambili: Julayi 21 - I-Iran iqhuba amaGay amabini amaGay (uhlaziyo); Ngomhla we-11 ku-Agasti โ Imithombo yase-Iran Umbuzo ngezityholo zodlwengulo ekubulaweni kolutsha; Ngo-Agasti 12 - Ukubulawa kweGay ezimbini ezitsha ezicwangcisiweyo e-Iran, i-Iranian Exile Group ithi; Ngo-Agasti 17 - I-Iran's Deadly Anti-Gay Crackdown: Ngezigwebo ezimbini ezingakumbi ezicwangcisiweyo, i-Speed โโof Repression Steps Up. Agasti 25 - I-Iran ye-Anti-Gay Purge iyakhula: Iingxelo zokubulawa okutsha. NgoSeptemba 8 - i-Iran kunye nokufa kwe-Gay Activism.
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