Muhafu yokutanga yezana remakore rechi20, baba vangu vakasiya chikoro cheTalmud, vakarega zvachose kuenda kusinagogi, uye vaigara vachitaura kuvenga kwavo vanarabhi. Panguva ino yehupenyu hwangu, mukutanga kwezana ramakore rechi21, ndinonzwawo ndine chisungo chekusiya zvachose nedzinza reJudeocentrism. Nhasi ndinonyatsoziva kuti handina kumbobvira ndave muJudha chaiye wepanyika, ndichinzwisisa kuti chimiro chekufungidzira chakadaro hachina hwaro hwakananga kana maonero etsika, uye kuti kuvapo kwacho kunobva pamaonero asina magumo uye edzinza renyika. Pakuvamba ndakadavira nenzira isina kururama kuti tsika yechiYiddish yemhuri yandakakurira yakanga iri ratidzirwo yetsika yechiJudha. Kwapera chinguva, ndakafemerwa naBernard Lazare, Mordechai Anielewicz, Marcel Rayman naMarek Edelman - avo vese vakarwisa antisemitism, Nazism uye Stalinism pasina kutora maonero ethnocentric - ndakaona sechikamu chevashoma vakadzvinyirirwa uye vakarambwa. Mukambani, sokunge zvakadaro, yomutungamiriri wesosharisiti Léon Blum, mudetembi Julian Tuwim nevamwe vakawanda, ndakaramba ndakaomesa musoro ndiri muJudha akanga abvuma kuzivikanwa uku nemhaka yezvitambudzo nemhondi, utsotsi uye vanyajambwa vavo.
Zvino, mushure mekuziva zvinorwadza kuti ndakatevera Israeri, ndakafananidzwa nemutemo mumanyepo ethnos evatambudzi nevatsigiri vavo, uye ndaonekwa munyika seimwe yekirabhu yakasarudzika yevasanangurwa nevatsigiri vavo, ndinoshuva. kusiya basa uye kurega kuzviona ndiri muJudha.
Kunyangwe iyo nyika yeIsrael isingaite kushandura nyika yangu yepamutemo kubva ku "muJudha" kuenda ku "Israel", ndinoshinga kutarisira kuti mafilosemite ane mutsa, akazvipira maZionist uye akakwidziridza anti-Zionists, vese vanowanzo dzidziswa pane zvakakosha pfungwa, vacharemekedza. chishuwo changu uye worega kunditora semuJudha. Sezvineiwo, izvo zvavanofunga hazvina basa kwandiri, uye zvichiri zvishoma izvo zvakasara zveantisemitic idiots zvinofunga. Nekuda kwenjodzi dzekare dzemuzana remakore rechi20, ndatsidza kuti handichazove vanhu vashoma mukirabhu yakasarudzika iyo vamwe vasina mukana kana zvikwaniriso zvekujoinha.
Nekuramba kwangu kuva muJudha, ndinomiririra rudzi munguva yekunyangarika. Ndinoziva kuti nekusimbirira kuti chete nhoroondo yangu yekare yaive yechiJudha, nepo zvangu zvemazuva ese (zvirinani kana kuipa) iIsrael, uye pakupedzisira kuti ramangwana rangu nerevana vangu (kana ramangwana randinoshuvira) rinofanira kutungamirwa nepasirese. , misimboti yakavhurika uye ine rupo, ini ndinopikisana nefashoni inotonga, iyo inonangana kune ethnocentrism.
Semunyori wenhoroondo wenguva yemazuva ano, ndinoisa pfungwa yekuti nhambwe yetsika pakati pemuzukuru muzukuru wangu neni ichave yakakura kana yakakura kupfuura inondiparadzanisa nasekuru vangu. Zvese zviri nani! Ndine nhamo yekugara iye zvino pakati pevanhu vakawanda vanotenda kuti zvizvarwa zvavo zvichafanana navo mune zvose, nokuti kwavari vanhu vanogara nekusingaperi - a fortiori rudzi-vanhu vakadai semaJuda.
Ndinoziva kugara mune imwe yenzvimbo dzine rusaruraganda zvakanyanya munyika dzekumadokero. Rusaruraganda ruripo kune imwe nhanho kwese kwese, asi muIsrael ruripo mukati memweya wemitemo. Inodzidziswa muzvikoro namakoreji, inoparadzirwa muzvinobudisa nhau, uye pamusoro pazvose uye inotyisa zvikuru, muna Israeri vanosarura rudzi havazivi zvavari kuita uye, nemhaka yaikoku, havanzwi nenzira ipi neipi vachisungirwa kukumbira ruregerero. Kushaikwa kwekuda kuzviruramisa kwaita kuti Israeri ive nzvimbo inokoshesesa yekutarisa mafambiro mazhinji ekurudyi pasi rose, masangano ane nhoroondo yekare yekupokana nechitendero inongozivikanwa zvakanyanya.
Kugara munzanga yakadaro kwazova kusingatsungiririki zvikuru kwandiri, asi ndinofanirawo kubvuma kuti zvakangoomawo kuita musha wangu kune imwe nzvimbo. Ini pachangu ndiri chikamu chetsika, mitauro uye kunyange pfungwa yekugadzirwa kweZionist bhizinesi, uye handikwanise kuzvigadzirisa. Nehupenyu hwangu hwemazuva ese uye tsika yangu yekutanga ndiri muIsraeri. Handisi kunyanya kudada neizvi, sezvo ndisina chikonzero chekudada nekuve murume ane maziso ebrown uye weavhareji urefu. Ini kazhinji ndinonyara neIsrael, kunyanya pandinoona humbowo hwehutsinye hwayo hwekumisikidzwa kwemauto, nevasina simba uye vasina kuzvidzivirira avo vasiri chikamu che "vanhu vakasarudzwa".
Pakutanga muhupenyu hwangu ndakava nehope dzenguva pfupi dzekuti muPalestine Israel anofanirwa kunzwa ari kumba muTel Aviv sezvinoita muJudha wekuAmerica muNew York. Ndakatamburira uye ndakatsvaka kuti upenyu hwomuMuslim Israel muJerusalem hufanane nehwemuJudha wechiFrench ane musha uri muParis. Ndaida kuti vana veIsrael vevaChristian African immigrants vabatwe sevana veBritish vevatorwa kubva kuIndia subcontinent vari muLondon. Ndaitarisira nomwoyo wangu wose kuti vana vose vechiIsraeri vaizodzidziswa pamwe chete muzvikoro zvakafanana. Nhasi ndoziva kuti kurota kwangu kuri kuda zvakanyanya, kuti zvandinoda zvakawedzeredzwa uye hazvina basa, kuti chokwadi chekuzvigadzira chinotariswa nemaZionist nevatsigiri vavo sekurwisa hunhu hwechiJudha hwenyika yeIsrael, uye nekudaro seanopokana.
Nekudaro, zvinoshamisa sezvazvingaite senge, uye mukupesana neyakavharika-muhunhu hwekuzivikanwa kwechiJudha, kubata chiziviso cheIsrael sezvematongerwo enyika-tsika kwete "rudzi" zvinoita sekunge zvinopa mukana wekuwana yakavhurika uye inosanganisirwa kuzivikanwa. Zvinoenderana nemutemo, kutaura zvazviri, zvinogoneka kuve mugari weIsrael pasina kuve muJudha "wedzinza" renyika, kutora chikamu mu "supra-culture" apo uchichengetedza "infra-culture" yako, kutaura mutauro wehegemonic uye kurima. mukufambirana nemumwe mutauro, kuchengetedza mararamiro akasiyana uye kubatanidza akasiyana pamwechete. Kubatanidza iyi republican yezvematongerwo enyika, zvingave zvakafanira, hongu, kuti vange vasiya kwenguva yakareba hermeticism yedzinza, kudzidza kuremekedza Mumwe uye kumugamuchira seakaenzana, uye kushandura mitemo yebumbiro reIsrael kuti ienderane. misimboti yegutsaruzhinji.
Zvinonyanya kukosha, kana zvambokanganwika kwekanguva: tisati taisa pfungwa pamusoro pekuchinja gwara rekuzivikanwa kweIzirairi, tinofanira kutanga tazvisunungura kubva mukubata basa rakatukwa uye risingaperi iro riri kutitungamira munzira yekuenda kugehena. Muchokwadi, hukama hwedu kune avo vari vechipiri-kirasi vagari veIsrael hwakasungwa zvisingaite nehukama hwedu kune avo vanogara mukutambudzika kukuru pasi peketani yeZionist yekununura basa. Chiverengero chavagari vapasi icho chinodzvinyirirwa, icho chakagara pasi pokugara kwaanodokusvika makore 50, chichinyimwa maruramiro ezvamatongerwe enyika neehurumende, panyika iyo “nyika yavaJudha” inorangarira kuva yayo, inoramba yakasiiwa nokufuratirwa nezvematongerwe enyika enyika. Ndinoziva nhasi kuti kurota kwangu kwekupera kwekugara uye kugadzirwa kwemubatanidzwa pakati pemarepublic maviri, Israel nePalestine, yaive chimera yaitarisira pasi kuenzana kwemauto pakati pemapato maviri.
Nokuwedzera kunoratidzika kuva kwatononoka; zvese zvinoratidzika kunge zvakarasika, uye chero nzira yakakomba yemhinduro yezvematongerwo enyika haina kupera. Israeri yajaira izvi, uye haikwanisi kuzvibvisa pakutonga kwayo kwekoloni pane vamwe vanhu. Nyika iri kunze, zvinosuwisa, haiite zvinodiwawo. Kuzvidemba kwaro nehana yakaipa zvinoidzivisa kunyengedza Israeri kuti adzokere kumiganhu ya1948. Kana kuti Israel haina kugadzirira kutora nzvimbo dzakagarwa zviri pamutemo, sezvo yaizofanira kupa hugari hwakaenzana kune vanhu vanogarwa uye, nechikonzero ichocho choga, ichizvishandura kuita nyika mbiri. Zvakafanana nenyoka yengano yakamedza munhu mukuru, asi inofarira kukachidzwa pane kuisiya.
Izvi zvinoreva here kuti neniwo, ndinofanira kusiya tariro? Ndinogara mukupokana kwakadzama. Ndinonzwa sokunge ndiri nhapwa pamberi pekukura kwerudzi rwechiJudha rwakandipoteredza, nepo panguva imwe cheteyo mutauro wandinotaura nawo, kunyora uye kurota uri wechiHebheru chakanyanyisa. Pandinozviwana ndiri kunze kwenyika, ndinonzwa kushuva mutauro uyu, motokari yemanzwiro angu uye pfungwa. Kana ndiri kure neIsrael, ndinoona kona yangu yemugwagwa muTel Aviv uye ndinotarisira kunguva yandinogona kudzokera kwairi. Ini handiendi kumasinagogi kuti ndiparadze chishuvo ichi, nekuti vanonamata imomo nemutauro usiri wangu, uye vanhu vandinosanganako ikoko havatombodi kunzwisisa kuti kuva Israeri kunorevei kwandiri.
MuLondon ndiwo mayunivhesiti nevadzidzi vawo vevanhurume nevanhukadzi, kwete zvikoro zveTalmudic (uko kusina vadzidzi vechikadzi), zvinondiyeuchidza nezvekambasi yandinoshanda. MuNew York macafe eManhattan, kwete maBrooklyn enclaves, anondikoka nekundikwezva, seaya eTel Aviv. Uye pandinoshanyira zvitoro zvakawanda zvemabhuku zveParis, chinouya mupfungwa dzangu ivhiki remabhuku echiHebheru rinorongwa gore negore muIsrael, kwete mabhuku matsvene emadzitateguru angu.
Kubatana kwangu kwakadzama nenzvimbo inongoshanda chete kupaza kusava netariro kwandinonzwa kwairi. Uye saka ini kazhinji ndinonyura mukuora mwoyo nezvezvazvino uye kutya remangwana. Ndaneta, uye ndinonzwa kuti mashizha ekupedzisira epfungwa ari kudonha kubva mumuti wedu wekuita zvematongerwo enyika, achitisiya tisina mbereko pamberi pezvipfeko zven'anga dzakarara dzedzinza. Asi handigoni kuzvibvumira kuti ndive nefungidziro yakakwana. Ini ndinoshinga kutenda kuti kana vanhu vakabudirira kubuda kubva muzana ramakore re20 pasina hondo yenyukireya, zvese zvinogoneka, kunyangwe kuMiddle East. Tinofanira kuyeuka mashoko aTheodor Herzl, muroti ane mhaka yokuti ini ndiri muIsraeri: “Kana muchida, haisi ngano.”
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