Nthawi ndi nthawi phunziro limakhala losavuta. Nthawi zina timaphunzira zinthu mwangozi, ngati zili choncho. Ndipo mosapeลตeka zikuwoneka, maphunziro omwe ali ofunika kwambiri, nthawi zambiri amachokera ku malo ocheperako, komanso nthawi zosayenera. Mochuluka kwambiri, kuti ngati sitikutchera khutu, tidzawaphonya kotheratu. Ndi mmene zinalili mu August watha pamene agogo anga aakazi anamwalira ali ndi zaka 78.
Ngakhale kumwalira kwa wachibale kungawoneke ngati kosayenera ngati kungodumphira pazandale, ndikodabwitsa kwenikweni, komwe kumapangitsa kukhala kosangalatsa komanso kofunikira. Koma choyamba, mawu oyamba pang'ono a zomwe ndikuyesera kufotokoza.
Mโzaka zingapo zapitazi ndakhala ndi mwayi wolankhula pamaso pa anthu pafupifupi 60,000, mโzigawo 40, mโmakoleji oposa 150, ndi mโmagulu ambiri a anthu, mabungwe ogwira ntchito, ndi mabungwe a boma ponena za tsankho. Anthu ena amamvetsera mwachidwi, pamene ena samamvetsera kwambiri. Koma uthenga womwe ndimapereka nthawi zonse umakhala wofanana: anthu otchedwa "oyera" ali ndi udindo wolimbana ndi tsankho chifukwa ndi vuto lathu, lopangidwa mwamakono ndi ife, ndi cholinga cholamulira mphamvu pa chuma ndi mwayi pamtengo wapatali. wa anthu amitundu. Kuphatikiza apo, azungu onse, mosasamala kanthu za malingaliro awo omasuka, "kulolera" kwa ena, ndi mbiri yabwino yovota, ayenera kuthana ndi zikhulupiriro zamkati zokhuza utsogoleri wa azungu zomwe tonsefe timavutika nazo. Palibe amene ali wosalakwa. Palibe amene sakhudzidwa ndi chikhalidwe cha tsiku ndi tsiku chomwe tonsefe timakhalapo - makamaka ponena za momwe timaphunzitsidwira kuganiza za anthu amtundu wamtundu uwu: makhalidwe awo, moyo wawo, luntha, kukongola, ndi zina zotero.
Mosakayikira, kukhutiritsa azungu - makamaka okonda ufulu omwe amaumirira kuti mnzawo aliyense yemwe ali nawo ndi wakuda - kuti nawonso ali ndi zikhulupiriro zakusankhana mitundu, ngakhale zamtundu wankhanza kwambiri, zimatsimikizira zovuta kwambiri pantchito yomwe ndimagwira. Simungathe kutsimikizira mfundoyi ndi ziwerengero, kapena manambala a kafukufuku, kapena kuwonetsa kusiyana kwakukulu m'miyoyo yomwe imapanga maziko a tsankho lachi America. Pokhulupirira kuti ali opanda tsankho, malingaliro, ndi makhalidwe omwe amadziwika ndi atsankho "enieni", anthu oterowo akuwoneka kuti ndi otsutsa kwambiri kuwunika komwe kwaperekedwa pano mpaka pano.
Ndili ndi malingaliro awa ndibwerera kwa agogo anga. Pa imfa yake - komanso mpaka, moyo wake, mpaka atamwalira - amapereka zambiri mwa njira yotsimikizira kuti kusankhana mitundu kumakhudza ife tonse kuposa chilichonse chomwe ndakumana nacho.
Ukuwona agogo anga anali m'modzi mwa anthu omasuka. Mโmalo mwake, mโnjira zambiri iye sanali wowolowa manja, makamaka chifukwa cha nthaลตi ndi malo amene anakhalamo mbali yaikulu ya moyo wake. Wobadwira kudera la Detroit, iye ndi makolo ake adasamukira kumwera m'ma 1920s. Bambo ake anali membala wa Ku Klux Klan. Chimembala chomwe chiri, kufikira tsiku la 1938 pamene mwana wake wamkazi yekhayo anamuuza iye kuti anayamba kukondana ndi mwamuna wachiyuda, ndipo kuti kuwonjezera pa zimenezo, chidani chake cha anthu akuda chinali chosamveka kwa iye. Kenako anamโpatsa miinjiro yake, ndipo movomerezedwa ndi amayi ake, anamโfunsa ngati aziwotcha, kapena adziwotcha yekha. Anamutsutsa ngakhale kuti anali ndi mantha odziwikiratu oti aimirire kwa mwamuna yemwe sanali wodekha, komanso wokhoza kuchita zachiwawa. Monga momwe zikukhalira, iye sakanati apite ku msonkhano wina wa Klan, ndipo ndi nkhani zonse anasintha maganizo ake, anasintha makhalidwe ake, ndithudi, anasintha moyo wake.
M'moyo wake wonse amalimbana ndi tsankho kangapo kangapo: kuwopseza kupha munthu wogulitsa nyumba yemwe amafuna kukhazikitsa mapangano oletsa m'dera losankhidwa ndi banja lake la Nashville; kukana mawu osankhana mitundu nthawi iliyonse akawamva, abwenzi, achibale, kapena anthu osawadziwa. Mantha omwe nthawi zambiri amafooketsa azungu ndipo amatipangitsa kusafuna kutsutsa tsankho - lofotokozedwa ndi James Baldwin monga kuopa "kuchotsedwa pagome lolandiridwa" la anthu oyera - chinali chinthu chomwe sichinachitepo kanthu m'moyo wake. Iye anali mkazi wamakhalidwe abwino, ndipo ngakhale kuti sanali wochirikiza malamulo, mwa njira yakeyake anakhomerezabe mwa ana ake ndi zidzukulu kuzindikira chabwino ndi choipa chimene chinali chosagwedezeka pankhaniyi. Iye ali ndi udindo waukulu pa zomwe ine ndiri ndi zomwe ndikuchita lero.
Koma matamando okwanira. Kutamanda akufa sicholinga changa pano. Pakuti pali mbali ina ya nkhaniyi yomwe si yosangalatsa kwambiri, komabe yophunzitsa ndi yofunika kwambiri kuposa zomwe zanenedwa kale. Ndi gawo la imfa ya agogo anga.
Zaka zingapo zapitazo zidadziwika kuti MawMaw, monga tidamudziwira, amadwala matenda a Alzheimer's mwachangu kwambiri. Aliyense amene anaona wokondedwa wake akuvutika ndi vutoli amadziwa kuti n'zovuta kuona kuwonongeka kumene kukuchitika. Zokumbukira zoiwalika zimadza poyamba. Kenako mayina oiwalika. Kenako nkhope zosadziwika. Ndiye mantha ndi mkwiyo wa kumverera kusiyidwa. Ndipo potsirizira pake, kubwereranso ku kakulidwe ka khanda, kotsirizira ndi kuyamwa milomo ya munthu mofanana ndi ana akhanda. Ndi matenda ochititsa chidwi, chifukwa amapangitsa kuti anthu athanzi akhale opanda chochita, ndipo pamapeto pake amangoyambitsa kusokonezeka m'maganizo, komanso thupi. Zimapangitsa kuti ozunzidwawo asathe kuganiza kapena kuganiza mozama. Zimasokoneza malingaliro ozindikira za mphamvu zake, ndipo m'menemo muli mfundo ya nkhani yanga.
Mukuwona kukana kulemera kwa kuyanjana kwanu kumafuna kuganiza mozindikira. Pamafunika kukhalapo kwa luso losankha. Ndipo chakumapeto kwa moyo wa agogo anga aakazi, thupi lawo ndi malingaliro ake zidayamba kutsekedwa mwachangu, chidziwitso ichi - malingaliro abwino omwe adawatsogolera kulimbana ndi zitsenderezo zovomereza kusankhana mitundu - zidayamba kuzimiririka. Kuzindikira kwake za yemwe iye anali ndi chimene iye anachirikiza moyo wake wonse kunazimiririka. Ndipo pamene izi zinkachitika, mpaka kumapeto kwa wodi ya dementia ya nyumba yosungirako anthu okalamba, chinthu chodabwitsa ndi chosokoneza chinachitika. Anayamba kutchula anamwino ake akuda kwambiri ndi mawu ofala kwambiri, omwe amapanga maziko a malingaliro amtundu waku America. Mawu omwe a Malcolm X adanena ndi mawu oyamba omwe atsopano adaphunzira atabwera mdziko muno. Nigger. Mawu omwe sakanati anene kuchokera m'malingaliro ozindikira, koma omwe adakhala otsekeka m'chidziwitso chake ngakhale anali ndi zolinga zabwino komanso kudzipereka kwake kwa moyo wonse kuti akhale wolimba polimbana ndi tsankho. Mawu omwe akanamudwalitsa ngakhale kuganiza. Mawu omwe angamupangitse chiwawa ngati atamva akunena. Mawu omwe, kuti iye alankhule yekha, akanamupangitsa iye kukhala munthu wina kwathunthu. Koma apo izo zinali, zonyansa, ndi zowawa, ndi zofotokozedwa bwino monga momwe zinakhalira kale ndi abambo ake.
Ganizirani bwino zomwe ndikunena. Ndipo chifukwa chake zili zofunika. Apa panali mkazi amene sanathenso kuzindikira ana ake omwe; mkazi yemwe samadziwa yemwe anali mwamuna wake; sindinkadziwa komwe iye anali, dzina lake, chomwe chinali chaka, komabe, amadziwa zomwe adaphunzitsidwa ali wamng'ono kuti azitcha anthu akuda. Pamene sanathenso kukana chiwanda chimenechi, chotsekeredwa mโmbali zakutali za malingaliro ake ngati bomba, chinadzilimbitsanso ndi kuphulika ndi kubwezera. Sanakumbukire momwe angadzidyetse, chifukwa cha Mulungu. Sanathe kupita ku bafa yekha. Sanazindikire kapu yamadzi kuti inali chiyani. Koma ankatha kuzindikira munthu woipa. Amereka anali atawona kwa izoโndipo palibe matenda amene akanati amuchotse iye ku kukumbukira kumeneko. Zoonadi, akadakhala amodzi mwa mawu omaliza omwe anganene, asanaleke kulankhula.
Chonde mvetsetsani mfundo yanga: Poganizira za moyo wonse wa mayiyu, komanso momwe adamwalira pang'onopang'ono, mawu ake ngakhale ankhanza ngati nigger sakunena chilichonse chokhudza iye. Koma limafotokoza zambiri za dziko lake. Za mbewu za zoipa zoyera zobzalidwa mozama mwa aliyense wa ife ndi chikhalidwe chathu; mbewu, zomweโbola ngati tili anzeru ndi odziperekaโtingathe kusankha kusathirira. Komanso mbewu zimene zasiya zosasamalidwa zimamera zokha. Imalankhula mozama za ntchito yomwe azungu ayenera kuchita, payekhapayekha komanso palimodzi kuti agonjetse zomwe nthawi zonse zimakhala pansi; kuthetsa chizolowezi chopeza ndalama mu tchipisi zomwe zimayimira zoyera; kugulitsa mwamwayi - osati wocheperako womwe uli mwayi wodzimva kukhala wapamwamba kuposa ena - osati chifukwa cha zomwe iwo ali kapena omwe iwo ali, koma chifukwa cha zomwe inu simuli: pamenepa, osati munthu wamba.
M'njira zambiri ndizo zonse zomwe zimatanthawuza kuyera, ndipo zonse zimafunika kutanthauza kwa anthu a ku Ulaya. Kukhala woyera kumatanthauza kuti unali pamwamba pawo. Ngati mulibe mphika woti mukwiyiremo, mwina mungakhale nawo. Kutchula mwamuna kapena mkazi wina kuti ndi wachigololo ndi kuwachitira monga momwe walangizidwira kuchitira munthu wosakhudzidwa wotero ndiko kunena kuti ali ndi ufulu wa katundu. Ndikuwonjezera phindu pazomwe DuBois adatcha "malipiro amisala" a whiteness. Pamene agogo anga aakazi anali amphamvu ndi amphamvu sanafunikire kupezerapo mwayi pa malipiro ameneลตa, ndipo ndithudi, nthaลตi zambiri ankayesetsa kuwakaniza. Koma mu kufooka ndi kusokonezeka zidakhala zonse zomwe malingaliro ake omwe amadwala kwambiri adasiya. Ndipo adayitana tchipisi.
Mwina zonsezi ndichifukwa chake ndatopa kwambiri ndi azungu ena akuyesera kundigulitsa ng'ombe monga: "Ndilibe fupa latsankho m'thupi langa," kapena "Sindinazindikire mtundu." Mwaona, MawMaw akananenanso zimenezo. Ndipo akanaganiza bwino. Ndipo iye akanakhala akulakwitsa.
Fact is nigger akadali mawu oyamba m'maganizo a azungu ambiri akaona munthu wakuda akutengedwa kupita kundende pa nkhani zamadzulo. Chinthu choyamba chomwe timaganiza tikamawona Mike Tyson, Louis Farrakhan, kapena OJ Simpson (monga "monga wakupha uja"). Mukuganiza kuti ndikukokomeza? Kenako bwerani nane ku eyapoti yaku America ndikumwetsa nane ku bar nthawi ina munthu waku America waku America kusiyapo Oprah, Michael Jordan, kapena Colin Powell adzapanga nkhani. Tengani kabasi ndi ine kulikonse m'dziko lino, ndipo ngati dalaivala ali woyera (kapena kwenikweni china chilichonse koma chakuda), ndipo ulendowu ndi woposa mphindi 15, onani utali umene zimatenga kuti mawuwo kapena zofananira zake zamakono zilavulidwe. potuluka mโkamwa mwawo akadzadziwa chimene ndikuchita. Ndifunseni zomwe azungu adakalipira ophunzira akuda omwe adakhala pabwalo la basketball panthawi ya Rutgers / U. Masewera ambiri zaka zingapo zapitazo kuti atsutse zomwe Purezidenti wa Rutgers adachita. Otsatira omwe masekondi angapo m'mbuyomu anali akusangalalira osewera mpira wa basketball wakuda, komabe amatha kusintha pang'ono atangokumbutsidwa za mizere yankhondo yomwe imapangitsa ubale wolimbikitsidwa ndi NCAA nthawi iliyonse. Ndiyeno zitatha izo, ndiuzeni ine kachiwiri za kukhala colorblind. Tiyeni tipite ku Roxbury usikuuno, kapena East LA, kapena kumapulojekiti a nyumba a Desire ku New Orleans, kapena ku MLK Boulevard iliyonse mumzinda uliwonse ku America ndiyeno tiwone momwe zimavutira kuwona melanin. Chondichititsa khungu bulu wanga.
Ndiye tikangomva chisoni chifukwa chokomedwa ndi tsankho monga wina aliyense, chonde, chifukwa cha chikondi cha Mulungu, tiyeni tiphunzire kudzikhululukira tokha. Kulakwa kwathu kuli kwachabechabe, ngakhale, ziyenera kunenedwa, kutali ndi zopanda tanthauzo. Lili ndi tanthauzo lalikulu: zikutanthauza kuti sitingathe kuchita zinthu zomangika kuti tithetse dongosolo lomwe lidatitengera, kutilanda, ndi kutibera mbali ya umunthu wathu. Ndipo zomwe amayi omwe ali kumalo osungirako okalamba a agogo anga aakazi amafunikira komanso oyenera-kuposa kupepesa kwapabanja kwamanyazi-ndikuti ine ndinene zomwe ndikunena pakali pano, ndikulimbikitsa aliyense kukhala wolimba mtima kuti anene zomwezo. . Kuthetsa dongosolo loipali la kusankhana mitundu. Kuwononga tsiku lililonse kukana ziyeso za phindu, zomwe pamapeto pake zimafooketsa madera omwe tonse timadalira.
Anamwino aja ankadziwa ndipo inenso ndimadziwa chifukwa chimene agogo anga sankathanso kumenyana. Kwa ife tonse, palibe chowiringula chofananacho.